Never let you go

不想

2010-08-26T22:57:00.003+08:00

很想离开这里 ~
不想面对任何人，
总觉得好累
不想面对任何人
不想说任何事
不想解释，不想找理由
不想听，不想服从
不想着急，不想担心
不想失去。。。

永无止境

2010-08-21T14:24:00.003+08:00

受伤流血的痛，
让我觉得很舒服，
提醒我仍然活着，
这都不是梦。
好想让血一直流下去，
我需要疼痛
来唤醒我
我需要疼痛
来掩饰没有伤口的痛
毕竟
流出血的伤口
才有痊愈的机会!

雨天

2010-08-21T00:03:00.002+08:00

昨夜，窗外下着雨
我的房间，也不自觉地下起雨了，
浸湿了我的宝贝枕头 - girl girl

我的双手不停的颤抖，
心却是抽抽的刺痛
有说不出的难过
辗转难眠的夜里，
怀着不安的心情，
我不知所措，
一直责备自己，
问自己到底做错了什么？
得到朋友的安慰，
却无法平复波动的情绪，
一通电话，
犹如被骂了又骂，
眼睁睁的到天明。

疲惫的身躯，
伤痕磊磊的心，
我负荷不起
好想。。。

你的拥抱是她的幸福

2010-08-09T23:24:00.002+08:00

你的怀里
充满着温暖
是她向往的幸福

你的拥抱
是她最大的安慰
再多的委屈
都不算什么

躺在你怀里，
被疼爱的拥抱，
始终是最感动的。
她却贪心的
要多了一点点

不敢正视你
也只因为深怕自己无法自拔
对你怀有更多的不舍

临走前
还是无法自制地
偷偷的凝视着你的脸
心里有说不出的难过与不舍
也不愿转移视线
转身的那一刻
眼泪不争气的落下
却不愿让你看见
她心碎的那一面
因为她希望把笑容留给你

Everything will be ok :)

2010-08-09T07:41:00.003+08:00

I had been away from msn for sometimes. I just need more time for myself to think more deeply about my future and other problems. After having alot of discussions or getting advices from people around me, i have alot of opinion as my reference. but after i talked to him yesterday, then only i realised in his mind and perception, my thinking and plan is so immature. I should have think more deeply and mature.

It comes to a sleepless night. It's midnight 3am, im talking on phone with my fren till 4am. My stomach had been pain since few hours ago. I guess i suffered gastric again. It is painful for the past few days also. :(

There are alot of thinking on these few nights. Im always wonder what should i do? what kind of decision i should make? Towards him, i really have no idea...

How can i breakthrough the end

2010-08-05T20:30:00.006+08:00

I cried...
but why is it still so painful
I can't resist the pain
*burst into tears*
Feel like wanna take the knife stab right into it
let it bleed so that i can know where the pain exactly come from
Everything doesn't seems to be alright
nothing makes sense
I dont know how...
why???
why wanna push me to the dead corner?
Am i deserve to be treated that way?

Im trying to smile and laugh as hard as i could
when im with you
cause i want to be remembered as the girl
who always smiles even though when her heart is broken
and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own

leave me alone...

i couldn't tell any pain..

It's fragile

2010-08-05T00:52:00.004+08:00

IM SORRY! ~ kor kor
I break the promise :(

Delicate to my dear Natorians

2010-08-05T00:40:00.002+08:00

Hope everyone is fine &

having a great life

~ I miss the moment ~

~ I miss all of them ~

miss those days

huggies ♥

New friends

2010-07-28T19:43:00.007+08:00

26 - 7 - 2010

After so long...

We meet up again. I was very surprised that he would call me out for tea. Kinda happy that hang out with him! It's been a year since last time we meet each other. He is the one i never forget even though we didn't contact at all.

Also, im happy to know two new friends - Jason & MZ! All of them are hair stylist. So cool right.. haha... the atmosphere is kinda weird as another 2 of them didnt talk much and im the one who talk whole night. lol..

Reach home very late @ 12.45am... Luckily my parents didnt say anything!

- Tony aka Jian Rong - - --------------- - - his brother Jason -

~ MZ ~

~ HOME ~

I been emo / sad / bad tempered for the past few days. Yeah, my mood turn to be good now! It's because i received call from kor kor, get a sms from loong, tea with Jian Rong and alot of care from many ppl.

Today, both of us manage to spend some time chatting and talk to each other. STill, the problems never solve and remain unchange. But, i wouldn't care much of it anymore. More importantly, im happy for who i am...

♥ qianqian

27 - 7 - 2010

happy? excited? fun? All i got it ~

Yeah, kor kor come all the way to klang. we have dinner at Osaka - a japanese restaurant. Another guest joining us which make me a little bit of excited. haha... His name - Jeremy. He is a smart guy, quite ok looking and very nice and friendly. yeah yeah... i know more new friends!
The food recommend by him was delicious. its really worth for the price. I like it so much. i wonder when is the next time eat at there again ~ Super nice dinner and happy :)
Thanks so much to kor kor for call me out and spend me nice dinner.

Cats and Dog

2010-07-24T21:39:00.003+08:00

Result release today!
Staring at the screen, looking at the result, it turn out sucks and really disappointing me. im so speechless on the moment. I had no excuses to blame on anything, anyone except myself. I can feel the tears rolling through my cheek.
Supposedly i should have gave my academic record a nice ending yet i screwed it up. Worst result in my life. I just can blame myself for not putting any effort in it. And everything that I work hard for the past 2 years are so wasted. Ended up, it turn out to be so bad.
All this prove that im really useless after all.... :(

Melacca one day trip

2010-07-23T22:15:00.013+08:00

26 June 2010

... till the day we meet again, the story continue with more fun & jokes. You guys are always the one i treasure much and it never come to end.

Early morning 7am, I received a morning call from long v. SHock man, it's damn early! I went out from home at 8am. THen, went to fetch goey *my sweetheart*, bought our breakfast at KFC drive-thru and fetch Jane *the beauty* and we head on to melacca. Yeppi, so exciting and really a talkative journey!

*FuLL with laughters and happiness*

We reached there in one and half hours, thanks to long v's driving skill & speed. lolx...

So, first place we visit is chicken rice shop to hv our breakfast again. All of us so good in eating. we ate lots and lots

That's great and we gain more energy for the later fun :)

Later on, we went jonker street to shop around and get some souvenir, Nyonya house, eat cendol, satay celup, dataran pahlawan! Alot of walking, sweating and yet funny and happy time.

We took alot of picture with iphone and nokia 5800 because they forget to bring along the digital camera. Still, all the pictures we took are nice. But, we manage to have 2 precious group photo.

the group pic that i like so much

The pic took by no skill man

The two pics which had the story lay behind & make us laugh :)

tiring yet so wonderful day !!

eat alot of food & im so satisfy

Thanks long v for spending us &

be a driver, take care of us for whole day!!

Best sista always :)

Thanks goey & Jane for the fun that you guys gave me

I appreaciate it alots man...

Love ya always

and hope we can hv more chance like today

miss you guys and our journey again

I'm BACK

2010-07-23T22:01:00.004+08:00

I had abandon my blog for such a long time, and yeah ~ im back... There are more and more happy and memorable story that i wanna share here! stay tuned... lol

It had been a harsh time for me during this exam period as im doing last minutes revision due to my sickness, laziness, emotional broke down. STill, i went through all the papers with all my best! Hope luck will fall on me as well ~

Yeah ~ i been enjoying all the time since i done my third paper ~ and yeah yeah.. the enjoying & wonderful time continue after i finish my last paper :)
It been a great time...

Somehow I feel a little bit of 'bu she de' to end my degree life so soon! I still can't see my future, what i want and what kind of life, career that i will fall into. Everything seems so complicated.

Forgive me for talking so much of crap here.

dumb dumb ever

2010-06-23T10:18:00.003+08:00

Finally, the final exam is started. COunt down 3 left ~
Yesterday, I had my first paper - IBPF and i screwed up on it
At first, i thought im doing well for the paper
aiks.. Later on, I realize that i had did a very stupid mistake
How can i copy answer blindly without reading the question carefully
wtf im doing now.. haiz... Thats the first stupid mistake that i did
I feel so dumb & stupid :(

Im feeling exhausted after this paper yet i couldn't rest or sleep when i reach home
Maybe im too tired plus the stupid mistake affected my mind
sighs...

Bad Luck

2010-06-18T10:54:00.003+08:00

I don't know why recently all bad things happen on me. At first i got sick and all those painful, then my phone spoil and... I wish to have more luck for my final exam. I just hope all the bad things happen now and won't happen for my final ~ It will be enough for me.

Kinda heartache after listen all those words. It hits my heart badly :( I wonder what is true... *emo*

Yesterday (17 June 2010), I feel really tired after went out for whole day. Finally, i able to sleep well after so long. Its been more than 2 weeks that i didn't manage to have a good sleep. Maybe this is because of my mood turn to be good. Im happy that he accompany me study for whole afternoon.

It's time to start NOW ~ yet i dont hv motivation..

he is the only one who can motivate me

yet he did nothing...

sighs!

BabY GURL ♥

2010-06-14T20:56:00.009+08:00

How much i wish i can be his only baby girl

cherish me like he did always

I knew that he don't like me to rely on him so much

I had been pestering him since i fell sick

I had no idea...

perhaps i need a way to keep myself

from stick with him &

stay away from him

Im always trying my best on it ~

I wish im the one bb ♥

New Puppy in the house

2010-06-13T13:32:00.004+08:00

wow...

This is my first time i meet him

~ little cuties ~

My cousin just bought it

It is a Schnauzer

but the colour of fur doesn't look like the usual one

not 100% pure

white colour really so nice

as white as the snow

I like it so much...

he is just 3 months baby only

still small size as compare to kino

New puppy

This is kino

He is very cute & smart oh :)

温馨的小事

2010-06-12T21:27:00.003+08:00

昨天，我去了Old Town，在那里消耗了差不多有六个小时。原以为出来外面，空气比较流通，也比较能专心的读书，可是我还是心不在焉。很多时候，我都是在发呆，望着店门口人来人往的走廊或是在店里的客人。

其中，有一桌人吸引了我的目光，我的视线一直都无法从他们身上离开。在我眼里，他们是一个非常温馨的家庭，由爸爸妈妈带着一对子女，还有爷爷和奶奶。另外还有一个老婆婆却不知道他们是什么关系。我猜想是奶奶的姐妹吧！她的声音最引起我的注意。我可以很清楚的听到她亲切的与孙子的对话。一家人一起在外面喝下午茶，是多么的温馨，是多么幸福的事呀！我真的非常羡慕，一直默默地渴望拥有这样的机会，却是从未实现的期待。如今，这份期待也只能保存在我心里成为永远的期待！曾几何时，我也有阿公阿麽疼，当时还小的我，却不懂得去珍惜，现在的我，是多么渴望与羡慕那些仍有着公公婆婆疼的小孩。希望他们会好好珍惜这一段美好的亲情！

在那一家人走的时候，我看见老婆婆和老奶奶手牵着手地一起走。那一幕，真令人心动！

当我想念我的公公婆婆时，

我只能在回忆里，

或是梦中，

与他们想见了！

S!CK

2010-06-12T16:06:00.004+08:00

I fell sick since last week and this push me even more pressure on my studies.

At first it is just a small matter of flu + sore throat. Doctor gave me the flu medicine and will be recover after few days of rest. One week later, my flu almost heal and here the sore throat came again. sighs.. As recently i always burn midnight oil, lack of sleeping hours and also water, sore throat getting serious. Due to too stressful, i got headache on wednesday night and i forced to swallow 2 panadol to relief my pain. Next day, the pain seems never reduced and i got so suffered and he sent me to clinic to seek for consultation from doctor again. Doctor asked me to get enough sleep and drink more water. She said if continue like this, i might get fever.

After taken lunch with him, he forced me to eat the medicine. After that, I didn't feel headache and blur blur already. I felt better. Once i reach home, i took a short nap.

Argh... The worst really happen to me. i woke up at 8pm and didn't have my dinner. That time, i feel so cold & i was suspected got fever already. I called him and wanna tell him that im really suffered but he seems no reaction and busy with his works. So, after few hours my fever goes until very high and i really don't know what to do. My dad went out and bought me dinner. AFter i taken my dinner then only take the medicine again. That night is real suffer, pain and cold + hot for me. Some more, i wait for him whole night to online and at the end, i was so disappointed that he didn't.

That night i really can't sleep well as i got cold & hot again and again. Also, my back was so painful until i can't sleep. On friday, he came meet me. We have breakfast together and he feed me with porridge. *teehee* Sick people should have such a privilege.

I thought im getting better and i study @ old town for the whole afternoon. I spent 5 hours there & i actually can't focus on it and didn't study much due to the painful of my back & my condition doesn't seems to be good. argh... im damn stress and worried ~ :(

Then, i got high fever again. AFter he done his work, he accompany me. I feel so comfortable to lay on him and warm that he hug me. Although im really very suffered at the moment, Im happy to have him beside me and take care of me. After that, i went to clinic again. this is the third time already. I straight away asked doctor to gave me injection as i got no time to wait my sickness heal slowly. I got to study and study.. really the worst case now.

That night, he spare many hours to accompany me because of my sick. He worried about me! :) We had dinner together. It's great even though i have to eat porridge again. After that, he sent me home.

These few days, I really ate alot of painkiller. I wonder will it affect my brain cell. I hope it wont and i wont get stupid after i got high fever for 2 days. lolz...

here is my medicine which make me crazy :(

i hate those medicine.. hate it :'(

Randomness

2010-06-09T15:10:00.019+08:00

Im wasting my time blogging here instead of doing my revision. Im sure many of them gonna say me no guai again. haha ~ Due to the killing subject - PFM, im here to release my stress! lol ~ this is just a nonsense excuse.

I still feel lazy to do my revision. Also, i suffered stomach pain this early morning at 5am. Argh.. what's a bad condition to start my day! I slept very late last night and yet awake so much earlier even though i do not have to go college. wth man, im real tired and exhausted. Even my aunt also asked me why i look so dumb and blur with my small eyes last night.

After few days of waiting, finally i get the email. It's a long email that written by him. I can't get into my mind what he wrote even though i read it repeatedly for several times. Anyways, i feel touched when i read the last part even though it is part of the lyric that he copied out from somewhere.

♥ Had a small surprise today! Erm.. maybe I should consider it as my wish come true. haha ~ I been wondering since few days ago that when he will come to find me like previous time. I still remember there is a day that he came all the way to my house and bought something for me as I angry him and 'fa pi qi' towards him. Recently, there are alot of argument & unhappyness happen. And im wonder why he won't bother again which care of me like last time. *disappointed*

Just now he came find me really surprised me. It's like what i think in my mind does come true. :) *Thanks for the lunch & bubble tea* happy with it ~

No matter what gonna happen in coming days, im still believe in our promise.

No matter what troubles you had, be tough and everything gonna be ok ~ support you!

No matter how busy we are, don't forget to slow down, have a rest, thinking of the moment we went through and take care!

No matter how long we didn't meet, im still believe nothing gonna change as long as there is a determination.

Last Last round

2010-06-08T08:59:00.004+08:00

It's 9am ~ @ computer lab
I really very tired & so sick now. Flu haven't fully recover here sore throat come again. Today gonna be a tiring day as i got 8 hours continuous classes to attend and all are so important for my final exam. No choice, i force to attend all tutorials. The worst thing is i didn't bring my girl girl along with me. Miss her so much. If i had brought it, I can take a nap in computer lab.

This period is really very tough for me and i just wish i can fully recover soon and gains more spirit to fight for the last one.

IBPF = stress
PFM = What the hell = nightmare
GI = Hopeless
BIS = dying

When i looked at my calendar, I feel panic, worried and scary. Left 2 more weeks to go. Im running out of time. How can i finish up everything in 2 weeks time. sighs.. hopeless :(
Stress level increases... 10% -- 20% -- 40% -- 50% -- 75%

yosh ~ go go go

2010-06-07T17:47:00.007+08:00

- moodless to get myself to study -
I can feel that my brain cell die due to revising this subject - IBPF. Finance subjects isn't my line that I familiar with. I can conclude that Finance and ME are two different world. Seriously, i hate finance and i never had score for those subjects. There are the one that i never know and understand since beginning. aiks.. im wondering why im here to study finance. I feel dumb and stupid for all these. x_x

I need more spirit to backup myself for this final round. I always pray hard that im able to get through it but seems like i never put effort to help myself. HOw? Recently I always got distracted by something else. I can't throw those matter aside, and it keep pester me.

I feel very tired after few days of revision. Its really consumed lots of my energy and i feel exhausted. At the end, there is nothing goes into my mind. what i get = 0! now i really look like this 0.0"

But still there is something that cheer me ~ i got my new small pillow lately, i called it girl girl. Coz it look so girl. haha... pinkish & cute with soft fur! oh no.. i just like it so much till i can't leave it away from my hand. :)

Yosh ~ got to back to my IBPF there ~ go go go.. i must do it!

yeah yeah ~ i like to hug it ♥

♥ muahz..

~ abit worried about you as i heard you fall sick ~

~ remember to get well soon oh ~

~ will care of you as how you care of me ~

♥ Ȃ Ŝw3ĕt sŵėęŧ daʏ of 06 - 06

2010-06-07T00:12:00.011+08:00

It's exact 4 months ~ time flies till we'll never realize about it. I never think of going out or plan anything in today as final are real coming soon, i got to speed up my revision. Yet, im being procrastinate all the time. sighs.. useless ~

I had a great afternoon :) cherish the moment that i spend with him! I went to Midvalley just now and its so crowded with people. DOn't like it ~ head to sg wang later on. I get the stuff that i want. argh ~ I just keep spend spend spend till im broke. SO much to buy yet so little to spend.

Thought to have some sweet desserts @ My honeymoon Desserts House. But in the end, no time to go already. Nvm, keep it for next time would be great too! I went back home for my dinner. I will feel great and happy if i can have my dinner with him tonight.

~ have little fun too ~ *whee whee* but, each time something unpredictable and unexpectable happened right after happiness. It proved what i said earlier are all correct. I just don't like it.

your ♥ are always the one i want :)

4 months - how much it means?

2010-06-05T16:12:00.008+08:00

the day of 4 months ago - 4 February 2010

This is the day that we officially know each other. Im actually afraid of talking to him and i just can peep at him all the time. I got distracted as his serious look when he work really caught my eyes. I was trying to get a chance to talk to him but all of us were so busy at that time.

After few days of working together, I actually have more chance to chat with him. Finally, we are able to joke around when there are no customers in shop. Also, as usual, i will still staring at him whenever im free. I observed the way he work and doing his things and im trying to be like him.

After one week, seems like we had alot of fun together. It's really a great moment even though we were so tired after all. The day without him in shop, i got the feeling of lack of something. I miss having him here! His sms cheer me alot on that time, im glad that he actually understand and considerate of my tiredness and feeling. Also, he appreciate what i did in shop! Im really very happy.

My last day of working - 13 February 2010
This is our first time having meal together. Yeah ~ we had our breakfast at MCD before start working! This meal is the incentive for me to work for the last day on 13 Feb. wow, we were wearing the same monkey shirt on that day. Both shirts also new one.

After resign, at first i worried that we'll never contact again. So I don't have chance to chat or hang out with him again. I never expect that we actually can contact through sms. and Yeah ~ we did! During the whole cny period, we chat through sms and went out together.

15 February 2010
First time that i went out with him. I feel strange and no idea how it goes ~ at the end, everything turn out great. We watched movie together which had lots of laughter, it is great that we had endless conversation. The time that we spent was just too short on that day.

17 February 2010
First time i went shopping with him. He accompany me shop for the stuff that i look for. He brought me to several shopping centre in one day. Also, all the apparel that i bought are chosen by him. *yeah - he is my image consultant who helped me alots with my attire* Thanks to him!

And yes ~ we still keep in touch with each other and going out whenever we're free. Being with him gave me the feeling of secure, going out with him gave me lots of fun, its just feel nice to be with him without any worries or sadness ~

It is no doubt that he is a good listener and companion. Since the day we are friends, he is trying to listen what is actually right inside my heart. He dig out all the painful and hurtful problems which i hide it deep inside my heart. I have no idea that how much effort that he gave in order to make me shout out everything. He is the one who never feel trouble that spend such a long time to listen to my complaints, nagging and all dissatisfaction. When i burst into tears, he stay by my sides, listen to me and helped me wipe all the tears.

His shoulder is always the warmest and most comfortable one that i miss all the time.
His hug is always the best comfort for me.
His care is always the great support to me.

Day after day, we're actually understand each other better. Both of us are used to have each other in our life. It's been lots that we went through together in these 4 months, we built our history, we coloured our memories, we filled our life with sweet, bitter, sour ~

Time is still moving, and everything around us is also keep changing, we can't deny that we're changing also. We'll never realize until we slow down and start to think of & feel it. Everything started with sweet and cheerful scenes. Problems arise due to our ignorance and careless.

I knew that he wish to go back to the starting point which we had the most cheerful and sweet moments. But, everything that we went through already carved and cannot be erase. Im grateful that we went through so much and I really like it so much ~ I like your existence during the moments that i fell to the bottom and hurt badly, i been so down without moving on ~

Yeah ~ EVerything doesn't matter as long as we're happy with our life now ~ We wouldn't know what will happen in the next second, and what we need to do is appreciate what we have for this second! let's play it to the fullest :) ♥

I actually have so much after all
thanks!
I'll never regret on it ~
bbj ♥

Back to camwhore ♥

2010-06-05T15:19:00.006+08:00

Yeah ~ im back to camwhore again ♥

i been busy with my assignments, working and alots troubles for the past few weeks. So, my mood was getting so down and everything doesn't look great enough. Now, im free from all troublesome assignments. No more assignments in my life, does it sound great? perhaps its not.. lolz..

There are alot of things happen for the past few weeks. lots... it's been so much that we been through.. I had alot of quality time spent with my beloved.

Loong & cathe came all the way to klang to find me for dinner. omg, im touched! love being with them :) i brought them to eat bak kut teh as dinner, and i had two dinner for that night. *fat fat* This is how i gain weight during these days. haha *_*

Once again, five of us "qian, rain, xuan, fish & aaron" having our great dinner with the hei kor at klang ~ Im still remember that the first time that aaron drove all the way to klang and send me home, that time also 5 of us together :) After dinner, I brought them to the shop i work @ hang ten to promote my polo shirt. lolz.. They bought alot monkey polo shirt ~ YEAH, we can wear the same shirt during roadtrip. *great idea* haha...

18 - 05 - 2010

19 - 05 - 2010

25 - 05 - 2010

02 - 06 - 2010

The girl who addicted to lollipops

2010-06-05T14:37:00.001+08:00

告诉我为什么好吗？

2010-05-22T22:57:00.006+08:00

为什么打从一开始我受的苦要是比别人多？
直到现在，我承受的还是比别人多
而某些人却一直以来都是那么轻轻松松的

为什么我需要付出比别人更多
而有些人却可以捡便宜，
轻而易举的得到方便和利益！

为什么每次受气的是我
为什么一直都是我

为什么那么的不公平
为什么每次都是这样
为什么一次又一次的一样？

为什么我要那么努力
而到头来我得到的是什么？

我不奢望会有人看见我的付出
也不需要别人的认同
但我只求相等的待遇！

一分耕耘，一分收获，
到底有多真？我很怀疑！

你不珍惜我的付出
没关系
你不认同我做的事
没关系
你不把我放在眼里
没关系
什么都要听你的
没关系
可是
我却无法忍受
你的大小声
我不是你的狗
你也不是我的主人
我不是什么事都要向你报告的

emo

2010-05-16T14:57:00.007+08:00

I just realize this is actually not what i want...
I have no idea.
Im tired and sick of feeling down

argh... im feeling lost!

借來的男人

2010-05-13T22:29:00.002+08:00

女孩子問我怎樣看婚外情。我認為是：

借來的時間，
借來的男人，
借來的女人，
借來的歡娛。

他已經結婚了，再怎麼好，都是屬於別人的。你只是把他借來用，而且還沒有徵求物主的同意。
她已經是人家的太太了，再怎麼可愛，都是屬於別人的。你只是把她借回來。

借來的東西，始終不是你的。
借來的東西，終究要還給別人。
借來的人，時候到了，就要回家。

借來的男人和女人，都是有期限的。無論那段日子多麼快樂，多麼難捨難離，時鐘敲響了，就要把他還給他的家庭。你可以遲一點還，卻不可以不還。借來的歡娛，總有痛苦的代價。

你唯一能夠永遠霸佔著的，只有回憶。

【本文摘錄自張小嫻《女人的愛情行李》】

如果借来的东西有个期限，

这个期限会是多久呢？

Words from HIM

2010-05-13T20:40:00.004+08:00

I'd go anywhere for you
Anywhere that you ask me to go
I'd do anything for you
Anything that you want me to do
as long as your smile & love with me.

I'd go anywhere for you
when you need me with you
I'd do anything for u
without any returns
as long as you have me in your mind

words that hit my heart

never felt that i can be

so loved by someone else

原来它会疼痛

2010-05-09T12:47:00.000+08:00

去年的今天，我崩溃了。
我陷入了水深火热之中，
就好比一场噩梦。
但当我惊醒时，
才发现那股真实感，
原来那不是梦。
直到如今，
我的胸口仍然是隐隐作痛。
那看不见的伤口，流不出血的伤
还是深深地烙印在心中。

原来这不是梦，
但我却无法清醒地面对一切。

The girl who addicted to lollipops

2010-05-09T00:00:00.001+08:00

09 May 2009

I'll never forget what had happened to me for the rest of my life

The day which i was suffer like hell

I feel the sense of betrayal by anyone else who i trusted all the time

my heart was like tearing apart

I wonder why... I wonder what i had been wrong?

is that my fault? my stupidity? my naive?

I don't know who else can i trust anymore in my life

I can't see any hope & light right in front of me

The hope, the trust i been given all the time, collapsed on that moment

I feel helpless...

I burst into tears...

I can't speak out...

I feel i been fool all the time

Everything flash across my mind,

which cause me the real taste of bitter

I can hardly stand to it

& I was in fear since the time...

Time flies & it's already one year

yet all the scenes that i been suffering never gone missing in my mind

Im still in fear

the only thing that withstand the bitter is the sweetness of lollipops

the scar which never heal itself

always remind me everything everything everything...

my heart is always crying

don't you hear it?

Sick zzz :'(

2010-04-25T23:42:00.002+08:00

The Night which i feel the pain
i been vomitting like hell for the whole night
& dizzy all the way....
I cough & vomitted till my lungs wanna drop out
kinda suffer...
I hate this feeling :'(

JJ Lim - 我还想她

2010-04-25T22:21:00.002+08:00

请告诉他我不爱他
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉他我还想他
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

Missing ♥

2010-04-25T20:02:00.001+08:00

define opportunity cost

2010-04-18T23:10:00.002+08:00

all the needs & wants will never get fulfill
& there is no satisfaction ~
I wonder what is my opportunity cost here
really very confused & no idea
which one is my priority

- manicure course
- professional accounting course
- working environment
- my future career
- travel
- getting a new car
- alots more ~

yeah, once i choose one of it and i got to forgo the rest of it ~

*she had been wondering all the while that when only she able to accomplish all her wish*

惊醒

2010-04-16T04:18:00.002+08:00

你的一句话，
唤醒了我，
也许，
是时候该清醒了！
原来我不可以
自欺欺人
原来我不能
若无其事
原来我无法接受
那我只好选择割舍.

♥ 一句简单的话 ♥

2010-04-14T00:19:00.002+08:00

LOST

2010-04-11T11:34:00.000+08:00

DAY & TIME in Η Ά и Ģ Ť ξ Π

2010-04-11T10:42:00.006+08:00

11 - 04 - 2010 (SAT)

Having fun with them make me forget all the tiredness & sadness
coz they make me laugh ~
coz they make me forget what is sad ~
coz they make me forget the moment of being lonely ~
It's only more FUN and more LAUGH when they're with me

There are ONLY 5 of us in the shop

~ ♥ ---- qian ---- moon ---- wei ---- yee ---- tat ----♥ ~

*kissing*

THIS is what we did after we closed the shop ~*

*heart ♥ ~ lovely babes*

- colour of the day = PINK @ from light to sharp -

- MY new look - new fringe - New polo tee - new pants -

~ Vitagen ~

2010-04-10T07:44:00.003+08:00

* Powerful & refreshing vitagen *

It's a sudden i think of vitagen & i miss it
It's been a long time that i didnt drink it
OMG ~ i miss the taste badly... i really want it for now...
especially when i got really stress and tired of doing assignmnet
Yeah ~ i bought my favourite vitagen...
hehe... I'm happy & satisfied after i drink it :)
- vitagen as my reward of hard work and motivation to go on -
as i know its gonna be a busy weekend & following busy week
Hope its end faster and soon...
I wanna watch movie ~

yeah :)

i like vitagen

and it gives me power

addicted to it

its taste as sweet as my lovely lollipop ~

muahz.. love it

♥

2010-04-08T22:54:00.000+08:00

♥ Yeah ~ I miss the moment ~
♥ It's really fun...

Dilemma

2010-04-08T04:29:00.000+08:00

Things are getting more complicated
argh ~ i don't know what to do...
i can't leave everything unsolve and ignore it
but how?

6 - 4 - 2010

2010-04-07T08:26:00.000+08:00

tiring day ~
attended classes & having discussion for assignments..
IM STRESS!!
Gonna complete 3 assignments in one week...
what the hell man...
i feel my laziness and its due to i didn't go to work these days
troubling for alots of matter
quite emotional recently & bad tempered
i hope that i won't get to hurt anyone
perhaps i already did it unintentionally...

Its been sometimes i do not hang out with my babes ♥ aka bef ~
I miss them so much & miss the moments having fun with them
we guys are really damn busy for now...
look forward to the days we will hang out together *muahz*
Not forget and also ♥ babe Gen & loong :)

hey hey ~ yeah ~ yeah ~
having a little fun & talk today
what i wanna tell i already told you
*thats for what was in my mind on the spot*
maybe there are more to say and
my mind was really empty and blank

Once AGain ~ i back to the look like 3.5 years ago when i started my uni life ~

2010-04-06T02:30:00.000+08:00

当眼泪流下来，才知道难过是什么！

2010-04-05T14:51:00.000+08:00

我。。。
说不出心里的话
我。。。
好难受
非常的难过
却不知为何会那么的辛苦。

~ I wanna be ~

2010-04-05T12:04:00.000+08:00

*i just wish to be what i wanna be*

*i did this when i tried to fold the shirt*

Assignment Fever

2010-04-05T08:34:00.000+08:00

Im here to blog again
as i didn't work these few days
im kinda free for assignments
i should be doing my assignment for the moment
yet im blogging now...

i woke up very early today
maybe i used to it
and i realize my back is very pain again
i think im old already
its always pain and pain
or maybe is because i stress about assignments
argh... really hope to get someone that can help me to reduce my stress

im really very unhappy
my face problem come back again
haiz...
its really sad to see my face like that
urh.... i dont know what to do beside going for facial
but i got no extra time for that
its driving me crazy...
sad :(
i wanna cry...

Heartbroken

2010-04-03T22:24:00.000+08:00

i didn't know that my tears would getting out of control and
its drop when i seeing those words...
somehow the feeling of fear conquer me badly
perhaps i had lied to you and everyone
i actually scared of it but i don't know what to do
everything is back to square one.
i feel like crying yet i know i can't...
i look dumb and stupid right now.

一切竟在不言中

2010-04-03T18:21:00.000+08:00

I feel little of moody now

yet i know i shouldn't

心里有一种说不出的失落感！

其实，我。。。

我到底怎么了？

有谁可以告诉我？

告诉我

我。。。。。。

呆了

累了

傻了

Let the pics tell its all ~

2010-04-01T22:18:00.000+08:00

as im getting busier day by day

especially during this crucial time (assignments period)

I'll let the pics tell it all about my life ~

MY DAY in college @ library *23 - 03 - 2010*

Lunch time *24-03-2010*

The intruder - Jace Jace

SNAPSHOT during classes *25-03-2010*

Lunch time before depart to Melacca *26-03-2010*

IN VAN & Apartment - CASA LAGO

THE DAY of IVAQ *27 - 03 - 2010*

TAYLOR'S TEAMS - GROUP PICTURE

DINNER @ SEREMBAN

LAST DAY of MARCH - STOCKTAKE Suffer *31-03-2010*

~ having the same outfits ~

LUNCH - finally got lunch after busy for whole morning

STOCKTAKE NIGHT *9p.m. - 11.30p.m.*

到底是什么?

2010-03-24T21:02:00.002+08:00

生气他
让我依赖着他

讨厌他
一直让我接受他的好

不想持续下去
却自私的不愿放手

因为：

第一次
有着被宠坏的感觉
也被细心地呵护着...

他给了：

体贴的照顾
更多的安慰
无限的安心
信心、鼓励
时刻的陪伴
欢乐加娱乐

我想对他说：

谢谢！因为他让我过得很好。

有时，
我会担心、害怕：

再次失去拥有的
承担不起、
负荷不了再次的打击
伤害他人
忽略他人的感受

而
现在的我
却不知所措。。。

Life 0_0

2010-03-23T08:46:00.000+08:00

Start working lately...
busying with assignments, study & work
feel damn tired as i lack of sleeping hours
but say honestly, im really happy and enjoys when i work as compare with study
I don't mind being so tired & lack of entertainment
but i just wish to have support from all of you
i feel pretty sad that no one would support my decision
*sighs*
support + comfort is all i want!

累了

2010-03-23T08:38:00.000+08:00

其实，
我想说，
我长大了

其实，
我想说，
我懂事了

希望：

让你看见
我的努力

让你明白
我的一切

让你知道
我要的是什么

我想告诉你
我真的累了

我想要的
是多一点的慰问与支持

我想要的
是再多一点的自由

我奢望的
是你们的信任与肯定

因为我真的可以过得很好！

Life ~~

2010-03-20T08:13:00.000+08:00

It's gonna be a busy life onwards yet im ok with it...

I'm busy... so i may not be able to update my blog

but pics will tell it all...

Audit Crash Course - Audit Again (my worst subject)

# after working #

study + assignments + working + socialize + entertainment = happy - emo + stress

HopeLess

2010-03-13T16:39:00.000+08:00

I don't know what i am doing now.
I feel stupid & dumb
My heart is beating
My heart is crying
My tears worthless
I thought im strong
I thought im ok
I thought im heal
in fact, im just cheating myself
why am i bother so much?
why im so kepo?
why im being stupid once again?
sighs... :'(
perhaps i need pain killer...

Thank You for loving M3

2010-03-11T22:25:00.000+08:00

Returning to college life

2010-03-11T20:12:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile after i complete my previous sem
I was busy with my holidays, working & cny outing
MY 3 months holidays just gone like that with pics and memories left in my mind
-my birthday party -
- penang trip -
- dinner with frens -
- christmas eve outing -
- connie's birthday party -
- working @ ＨＡＮＧＴＥＮ-
- tea with frens -
- shopping, movie, & tea -
*its really alots*

NEW YEAR -- NEW SEM -- NEW LIFE -- NEW IMAGE -- NEW QIAN

I believe that the previous qian wouldn't come back again
yet the current one doesn't good at all...
SO, its gonna be a BIG BIG change for her AGAIN ~~
How far she would go, its still remain unknown
YOU gonna find it out so soon!
HOPE SHE REALLY CAN BE THE ONE :)
thanks for giving all the support people...

TIME BACK TO COLLEGE AGAIN - NEW ENVIRONMENT -
just hoping that the sadness will fade away by leaving the saddest place in her life
everything start from new AGAIN ~

09 - 03 - 2010 *lunch time* + * lecture time*

11 - 03 - 2010 # time for fun in library & study #

blur qian with no direction in her life

HER current objective - to feel again what is happy, to check out the answer for happiness!

what qianqian long for now is

he won't intrude her life anymore!

NEVER AGAIN...

IT SHOULD BE END

HalF DaY trip

2010-03-11T19:30:00.000+08:00

07 - 03 - 2010
Its SUN-DAY OUTING
headed to Tanjung Sepat for seafood
The place which took around 2 hours to reach from Klang
it's further down from Morib...
~ so excited + happy ~
satisfied with the 2 breakfast i had

WHAT we did for the 2 hours in car?

IN CAR - - listen to the song, watch dvd - alvin & the chipmunks *its cute*, take pic, bluetooth each other ringtones & chit-chat... hehe :p

I feel the wind ~ whee ~

always the one of me - qian & my cousin bro called *zheng* -

WHAT AM I THINKING AT THE MOMENT?

THE CRAB cooked with salted egg are nice - like it like it *yeppi*

They laughed at me as i took pic for everything

Yeah~ i like snapshot!

@ Sepang Gold Coast Resorts * its still under construction *

Just have a look there... & all of them knew that i like to take pic

so they specially stop by and let me take pic.. hoho...

*seaside*

i like the wind blowing towards me

make me feel so comfortable...

its make me miss the moment at redang!

i miss beach & the blue sea!

wondering when is my next time @ beach...

Thanks for giving me such a nice day

it's enjoyable to the max

i feel the warmth

sense the wind

& everything gonna be alright!

ICE of the day

2010-03-04T21:20:00.000+08:00

Nothing special for today..
its damn boring day
attend lecture as usual, meet with frens, & settle my stuff
My mood is not really good
& someone make the herbal tea for me *to cool me down*
but its taste sucks...
no sweet at all... i don't like it
i prefer the red bean soup *last time*

I don't know why today i feel so mood-less when im with him
kinda sien...
don't feel like talking yet i want his companion
really so 'mao dun'

*serious face*

monkey with monkey shirt

hehe :)

03 03 2010

2010-03-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

It's 3rd day after college reopen
my laziness conquer me badly
i just don't have any spirit & motivation
to go on with my studies
and yet i can't give up on it
i wish to have more and more encouragement
am i deserve for anything?
I know that i have bunch of friends
who support me right behind me
I feel great to have you guys with me

spend my free time in new library
it's really a good place to take nap...
hehe... & playing snapshot here.. :)

always the one - ~* bff *~

I am who i am - qianqian

26 - 02 - 2010

2010-03-01T05:01:00.000+08:00

I had been spending whole day at station one
sitting there for around 6 hours
time past fast when im with him
i told him alot of things that
had been keep in my heart for long time
the atmosphere for that night is really great!

hardly can get someone who can listen to my heart

talk to me and accompany me

the only thing that i can say is

Thanks to him!

THe DaY ~ 25 - 02 - 2010 ~

2010-02-26T15:06:00.000+08:00

Nice Outing

Tiring day

as i can't sleep at the night before

been crying for whole Night

MY mind & heart full with mixture of feeling

wondering alot of thing

i feel so helpless

MOvie for today

- damn funny -

laugh non stop &

feel nice to be with him

all the sadness will be just part aside

for the moment now

~* I'm happy to be with him *~

i'll try my best to smile as much as i can

当我想起你的时候/黄磊;张清芳;黄舒骏

2010-02-25T08:23:00.001+08:00

当我想你的时候我的心在颤抖
当我想你的时候泪水也悄悄地滑落
当我想你的时候才知道寂寞是什么
当我想你的时候谁听我诉说

out of my mind

2010-02-25T08:03:00.000+08:00

I'm speechless for this moment

hardly to put my feeling into words

& i don't know how to express it

- nothing gonna happen -

its really nothing gonna happen

i beg it

- nothing gonna happen -

24 - 02 - 2010

2010-02-25T02:32:00.000+08:00

~ Nice outing ~

*purple for the day*

*with powerless spec*

~ after hair cut & prepare to do colours ~

*siao po qian*

- finally, it's done -

i like the spec

- he is the one -

i like my hair so much

thanks to him!

the day for you and me :p

Confused

2010-02-25T02:23:00.000+08:00

不知所措的感觉
是那么的无助
那么的彷徨
对与错
是与非
真与假
我不知道
我分不清
我无法解释

suffering

2010-02-23T00:38:00.000+08:00

23 February 2010

事情总是来得太突然，
令我无法在瞬间消化，
到底接着会发生什么事，
我真的很想知道。

今天肚子痛了一整天，
连腰也非常的酸痛，
真的很累了。
非常的辛苦！

年初九 - 拜天公

2010-02-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

好开心哦！

因为我又回到了

我最熟悉的地方

令我最安心的避风港！

今天是年初九 - 拜天公

回想起四年前，

真的好怀念过去。。。

也忆起了小时候的日子

人总是需要长大，

日子一天天过，

我们也渐渐地长大，

肩膀上背负的责任与担子

也随着时间的流逝，

渐渐地变得沉重

烦恼也有增无减!

its doesn't taste really nice

yet i still eat it

hehe :)

不管发生什么事
日子还是要过
笑容依然要保持

~* HaPpY BirThDaY to Adrian *~

2010-02-21T07:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Adrian

It's a surprise party for you &

yet its not surprised

There is someone who plan and put alot of effort

for this party

which you may not know it all

This is my first time went to Italiannies

the food there is not really as nice as i thought

but yet it is still ok

I like my look for the day

the dress that chosen by someone

4eva we remains
♥ nothing gonna change ♥

love ya always

* heart her *
- i need more time to hang out with her -

dear

i will give all my support to you

whenever you need it

i'll be there for you

cheer you like you cheer me always

muahz...

we must be strong enough!

18 February 2010 (4th day of cny)

2010-02-17T23:48:00.000+08:00

Im back to klang this morning
I went out whole day
at first, i never plan to go anywhere today
since he came to klang to settle something,
then meet up with him & he accompany me go shopping
sg wang -- time square -- sunway pyramid
i went 3 places in one day
shop until 9.30pm
kinda tired and suffer as i cough all the times
*luckily got him to take care of me*
however, all of the suffer is worth as i get what i want today
i bought the dresses and shorts that i long for
so nice ~~
i found new lollipops again!
cute cute.. but the colours not really satisfy me..
i have a great day :)
thanks him alot for making my day
*appreciated*

New Year eve :)

2010-02-13T17:10:00.000+08:00

12 - 01 - 2010

Actually today is my last day of working.

but i decided to help out for another one more day!

just because of him

*i got this today - from my supervisor*

its cute & i like it so much

whee :)

~ CNY eve ~

* I got free breakfast today ~ mcd again ~

* I feel so relax, free, great and good mood in the morning

* everything is fine for me

* However, something happened which spoilt my mood of the day

* at last, everything is ok after his comfort...

qian in monkey shirt

my style of the day

i just like the green

missing

2010-02-06T00:33:00.000+08:00

feeling lack of something
yet i can't tell what is it
i should have appreciate what i have now
i should have make some changes
i must find her back...
i must get her back here...

~ OFF DAY ~
* wasting time doing nothing outside instead of getting enough rest
* meet up with the gang # need more & more time to hang out #
* spare some time to meet up with him
* kinda bored that spending whole afternoon doing nothing while accompany him

~ tomorrow will be a brand new day ~
* its gonna be a busy day onwards
* gonna enjoy the moment now
* trying my best to cope with it
* yeah ~~ i can do it!
* :)

~ excited for cny ~
* i wanna enjoy to the max
* happy :)
* new 1 new 1 new 1
* yeppi ^_^
* wanna meet up with my dear BEF aka rainbows ~ muahz...
* wish to have more dates with my dear frenssss.........
* get more ang pao & money ($_$)
* win more ~~
* eat play movie ~ all i want it
* hehe...

bad-tempered :(

2010-01-29T13:45:00.000+08:00

i lost my patience

these days i get mad so easily

getting out of control

i hate the feeling right now

always wish to have someone who can listen to me

and able to hear the voice right inside my heart

things are complicated

i smiles but doesn't mean im ok...

trying my best to be ok or else pretend to be good

am i really ok?

i don't know... the question that will never have the answer..

i feel so silly...

busy + tiring @_@

2010-01-28T00:51:00.000+08:00

my life of this month is totally different
as compare with last month...
everyday just work and work...
i feel so damn tired
but better than nothing to do!
now its 1am,
im still blogging instead of sleeping
don't feel like sleeping at this moments..

i enjoys
i happy
i like it
i appreciated
with all i have now...
with the support from you guys,
its make me getting better and strong

Working life

2010-01-23T01:50:00.000+08:00

I'm pretty sick right now!
and yet im still awake here instead of getting some rest...
im weak as usual
*cough cough*
after a week of working,
everything getting smooth and im slowly get used to it
feel ok with the job.. kinda tired of it
as long as i get income, i don't mind... ($_$)

*break time*

in store room

- it's my 3rd day of working -

4th day of working

*sick face*

after one week of working

qianqian will work for the best!

Working day 1

2010-01-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

tiring day...
sighs.. i don't really like the job...
suffer...
stay at home still the best one...
sighs..
don't know my decision to work is right or wrong...
:(

柠檬和蓝莓的故事

2010-01-15T00:48:00.000+08:00

蓝莓：uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

柠檬: ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff

蓝莓：yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

柠檬：uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

蓝莓：ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

柠檬：ccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccc

蓝莓：uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

柠檬：kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

蓝莓：uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

听我说

2010-01-13T15:11:00.000+08:00

听我说好吗？

bitter >_<

2010-01-12T03:24:00.000+08:00

sighs...
emo again without reason!
endless...
moodless
those cold jokes doesn't help any
but thanks for the effort...
argh...
don't like to stay awake nor sleep
im tired like hell
yet i can't sleep
hate it to the max
i wanna hug hug!
tears in my heart...

如果emo可以当饭吃，

我想我一整年都不必吃饭了

sunday outing

2010-01-11T00:44:00.001+08:00

I'm damn tired now
as i woke up early & sleep late last night
afternoon i went hospital to visit my mum
stay there for an hour
after that, went to pyramid shopping with frens.
really long time didn't go shop already
yeah.. im happy...
so i won't feel tired
i found my lollipop :)
different one.. really different.. and its nice and cute
oh no, i gone mad again with the lollipops with many colours
i can't decide which colour to buy
they said green is nice, so i bought green 1..
~ new lollipop again ~

I don't know since when im qualify to be an image consultant
I think i will spoil your image more than helping you
haha.... but it's really fun...
im wondering how far you can change
im sure its gonna be a better look..
can't wait to see ur new look!

Im happy to know new frens
yeppi... get to know more and more frens here
hope it will remain...

10 - 01 - 2010

不知不觉的

在二十一岁的天空下

度过了

整整两个月

到底在这段期间

我的人生

改变了多少呢？

蒨蒨成长了多少呢？

说好不哭泣

却一次又一次的掉泪

说好要坚强

却不断的逃避

日子一天一天的过去

时间一分一秒的流逝

真的不该持续堕落

是时候清醒了

蒨蒨

失而复得

2010-01-11T00:43:00.000+08:00

顿时，我觉得很开心！
这样的心情、感觉 - 很赞

有些事、有些东西
等到失去了，
才发现它是如此的重要
才后悔当初的粗心大意
才懂得去珍惜拥有的一切
失而复得，真的不简单
相等于奇迹般的出现
我的所有资料回来了，
真的是值得庆幸吗？

失去的文件，可以找回来
那感情呢？
是否会存在着奇迹？
一直执著，一直等待
在内心深处仍抱着一丝见面的希望
盼望着奇迹的出现
但是
现实总是把绝望带到我身边！

connie's birthday

2010-01-11T00:21:00.000+08:00

~ Happy 21st birthday to connie babe ~

This afternoon,

went pyramid with bef lack of one

as connie was busy preparing for her party

get to know a lenglui - Lauren

hehe :)

a really nice & friendly girl

At night,

went connie's house for her party

pretty birthday girl!!

Her family members are nice & sporting

i like them ^_^

especially her dad

really very cute

all of them get high

i wish i could drunk

but i must control myself

cannot drink too much

~ hope she like the present that we bought for her ~

i'm happy she like the cake *teehee*

*afternoon attire*

~ the look at night ~

heart her lotsss & always....

yeah :)

i received the gift too

from her that she bought at taiwan

yea.. i like it..

thanks my dear

girls... with lauren pretty girl

always qianqian with the smiles :)

Baking for fun :)

2010-01-10T23:41:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time that i didn't bake cakes

since im so free at home & connie babe birthday is coming

i decided to bake a cake for her!

i was wondering which type of cake is the best

yeah~~ cheesecake always my favourite

as well as chocolate cake

here it goes the process of baking these 2 type of cakes

Cheesecake

egg white & egg yolk

mixture of melted butter & biscuits - biscuit base

cheese mixture - cream cheese, sugar, sour cream, yogurt, whipping cream & egg white

prepare to bake it

It's done!!

Supreme Dark Chocolate Cake

melt cooking chocolate

melt butter

egg yolks

egg yolks & egg whites

beat egg whites and sugar together until soft peaks form.

mixture of chocolate - cooking chocolate, butter, egg yolks, egg whites & sugar

Prepare to bake it ~~

*in the oven*

it's done... look so dark.. but smell nice... :)

Shopaholics

2010-01-07T20:00:00.001+08:00

It's new year!
troubled for skin problems? eye bag?
Have you heard all those type about those popular and in-demand packet facial masks from Taiwan??
Quinn's Viewty Online E-shop - selling various facial masks in packets and boxes with each tailored for any skin types and help you solve your skin problems.

Thinking of getting a new camera in new year?
i-Cam - i.cam.everyone.can.snap

Buy camera, Think of i.cam!
Consider price, think of i.cam!
delivery, sure think about i.cam!

If interested buying camera, please visit i-Cam

Shop for new year clothes?
Fashionitaholic Online E-shop - provide you girls with the best fashion and directly getting stocks from TAIWAN !

If interested, please visit Fashionitaholic

Lollipops lover

2010-01-04T20:52:00.000+08:00

Lollipop collection

This is all my lollipops!! :)

金莎- 笨蛋（feat.林俊杰)

2010-01-04T19:01:00.001+08:00

wondering

2010-01-03T03:27:00.000+08:00

i had a dream yesterday
i dream of beach
where i never been before
such a nice view in front of me
i enjoys the wind
being alone &
sitting at the beach
staring at the blue sky
thinking of what should i do
i wanna have a moment which is peacefully!
i need to rest & relax...

last day of 2009

2010-01-02T02:32:00.000+08:00

*~ this is qianqian @ 2009 ~*
*wondering how much she can change in 2010*

31 - 12 - 2009
last day of 2009
no feeling at all
stay in front of my laptop whole day
what to do??
poker-ing & chatting
im glad that got him (so called my dear) played poker with me
it's really fun
while playing,
im chatting with this guy that i added and know him the day before
nice chatting with him...
even though we just know each other
i feel so nice and comfortable to chat with him
he is an interesting guy name jeremy lee!
kinda proud of myself that i was able to do multi-task at the same time
my little sis who sit beside me
helped me to calculate numbers of people i chat with while playing poker
i think im used to it already
poker-ing, watching drama, chatting and editing pic (all run at the same time)
haha...

Dinner time
i went out for dinner with my frens
-bbq steamboat buffet- again...
buffet is always my favourite
happy and enjoys my dinner
spent almost 3 hours plus there
but i can't eat alots also
they ate ice-cream!!
i still dare not to try it...
it's gonna be a new year
perhaps i should have more courage to eat ice-cream again
it's sound stupid to hear that people scared of eating ice-cream
im the stupid one
funny right??

i think the world is small
there are so many coincidence happened
*incredible*
anyway, its really great!!
i had a nice day

- thanks to this 2 guys -
& also my frens who accompany me for dinner!

helpless :'(

2009-12-28T20:59:00.000+08:00

feeling so helpless now
im sad
speechless...
its all gone...
everything is gone like that...
My data, files, video & pictures all gone...
sighs...
nth i can do now...
*emo-ing*

Boring party

2009-12-27T11:48:00.000+08:00

26 - 12 - 2009
The day after christmas
today is not a good day for me
*stomach pain like hell*
pity qian...

attended the celebration party of my uncle & aunt 70 years old
@ Hulu Yam
I not close with them also
kinda regret after i went there...
That place is really damn far...
took almost 2 hours to reach
0_0 so boring!!
the christian party is really not suit me at all
& i don't like it...
Also, i don't like the dinner and food there
not nice...

on the way to my relatives house

*sien*

0_0 boring

the only thing that i can do is take pic :)

White Christmas

2009-12-26T22:57:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas :)
First time i hang out with frens for christmas eve *hehe*
Usually i will just stay at home and sleep
this year, they plan everything for me
happy to stay with my *bef*
always the one i cherish
colour of the day = white - as white as the snow -

Always us

*bef*

*pic of the day*

everything is white for today

included my drink *hehe*

I like this pic as it looks funny

we had our dinner at VIVO

qian with two sweeties

ss-ing time
*damn boring & tired while waiting the clock hit 12am*

the high heels is killing me

group pic

- always us -
the perfect one...

Thanks for the day

reach home without jam

stay awake until 4am

2am - 3am

there is an abnormal guy

who called my hp for many times

I stun and just keep reject the call

luckily

i got my dear to help me to settle

that damn stupid feller

then

he dare not to call and disturb me anymore

The DAY is SAVED
Thanks to
~ My dear ~

Happy Winter Solstice

2009-12-23T03:25:00.000+08:00

One of my favourite day in a year
kinda happy with it
as i can do & eat the rice ball
those adults always tell me that once you eat the rice ball
means you're getting one year older
I'm the one who eat alot each year
I like it so much.. hehe... :)
it's look so nice... taste sweet!
i miss the moments that i made the rice ball together with my grandma
I miss the moments that all of my family members gather at my grandma house
i miss those days that i cherish so much...

My sister & I do all these!!
-we were playing & trying to put the peanut inside-
thus, we did a huge 1 but doesn't look round enough

its cooked!! look nice with the bubbles ~~

*served*
the bowl of mine
I can't wait to eat it...
btw, the big one doesn't taste nice!!

*happily eating*
my mouth is full of all the rice ball
feel nice ^_^

-crying-

2009-12-22T02:27:00.000+08:00

I was pretty sad today...
I feel like wanna cry out loudly and yet i can't let my tears drop. It was kinda hard to hold my tears as i know i shouldn't cry again and again. It's not worth for crying anymore.
As i thought time will able to heal the wound & everything will be fine if i just let it be. I did something wrong today which cause myself to suffer even more.
Everything is still the same, my pain, my heart & whatever.. the only things that change is him. I feel the pain, i feel the hurt & my heart is beating. The pain conquer me badly.. the scene appear in my mind repeatedly.
I suffer like hell...
Everyone is trying to help her & pull her out, but she is useless... she had been sitting at the place since she fell down without moving on. qian is useless... her stubborn costs her alot. till now only she realize and yet don't wanna admit that right inside her heart, she still don't give up on him. he is no longer worth for her tears...

*the scar will be there forever to remind me not to repeat the same mistake*

Sighs...

2009-12-19T22:00:00.000+08:00

result out!
overall is ok but still unsatisfied with it...
kinda unhappy about it
lack of sleep
i feel so tired
no mood
gastric
whatever la...
everything just make my day gone...
~ joining bazaar today ~
to sell off all my mask
sighs...
something happen today
what the hell of all these...
I didn't know that the situation will go until like that
and i being so extreme & emo
no one will understand why i did that
im sick of explaining it
maybe im wrong to be so extreme
but you can't blame me for doing that
i have my own reason
i have my own thinking
i know im wrong which i didn't take care of people feeling
this is yiqian
thats why im a failure as a fren!

i had already said i might hurt someone else

im extreme

i express everything directly

i fail to be a good friend

like what you expected

Scary :'(

2009-12-19T00:31:00.000+08:00

aiks...
im pretty scare & worry now
what to do?
argh...
i hope i can get through
yet i know i couldn't
*pray hard*
hope everyone can get through it
wondering whether i can accept it or not...

失败

2009-12-17T03:06:00.000+08:00

我的生活一团槽
日夜颠倒，
吃不好，睡不安
受尽煎熬
不要这样的日子

我的课业一落千丈
难以补救
不上课，不听课
偷懒睡觉
令人失望

我的感情一塌糊涂
我爱的，伤害我
我不爱的，却烦着我
我觉得好累
事情总是那么的复杂

why?

2009-12-17T02:53:00.000+08:00

These days
he seldom find me
talk with me also become less
i started feel like wanna talk with him
but he seems so busy and didn't find me
mb he do not care of me anymore
i hate myself for being so selfish
sighs...
before that, i treat him badly
now he ignore me then i feel not used to it
i don't know what to do!
*confusing*

李聖傑-你們要快樂KTV

2009-12-16T12:48:00.001+08:00

i feel like crying after listen this song! kinda emo...

not everyone can understand the feeling...

*hug connie babe*

虽然故事情节不一样，

我不伟大

我无法给予真诚的祝福

我爱他

却接受不了失去他的事实

纵然他已不再属于我的！

Interview

2009-12-15T22:24:00.000+08:00

*qianqian*

become big girl :)

today is my first time

I took ktm to KL central alone

my parents allowed me

to go for interview by myself

First time, i do not feel the fear to go alone

even though i don't know where the place actually located

supposedly is adrian who agree to guide me to the office

but since he was busy

then he pass it to loong

he called & told me patiently

really have to thanks him

argh...

i just couldn't control myself

each time so easy to 'fa pi qi'

sorry about that, loong

~one funny thing~

I got so panic until i fill up wrong thing

aiks...

its for office use & i go fill it up

kinda stupid

i feel so pai seh when the people told me

haha ^o^

My interview is successful

great job of me!

talk less, less mistake!

but my malay is poor

i didn't spoke well

keep er... em..

somemore i mix with english

funny weh *_*

yet

that people still said im potential candidate

& will inform me for training again!

sound good right!

*yeppi*

i got the job!

Really tired to wait for the train for so long

while waiting

take pic :)

*i had been waiting for half an hour*

- reach klang ktm station -
i took pic while im walking

*i had been waiting for 45mins at the station here*

*so tired*

today, i saw alot of scenes in ktm

one of it that catch my eyes is

there is a young guy which give his seat to an old man

he is so kind! wondering still got how many people will do this!

38 qian

2009-12-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time that i didn't talk that much
- almost 2 and half hours -
what a relief for me
I laugh... as much as i could...
*hehe*
wondering when is the next time to hang out again!

i really abnormal

crazy & mad

38 all the ways

hehe

this is the way of me

i really need someone like you

to talk with me

Thanks for borrow me these 3 hours!

Never let you go

不想

永无止境

雨天

你的拥抱是她的幸福

Everything will be ok :)

How can i breakthrough the end

It's fragile

Delicate to my dear Natorians

New friends

Cats and Dog

Melacca one day trip

I'm BACK

dumb dumb ever

Bad Luck

BabY GURL ♥

New Puppy in the house

温馨的小事

S!CK

Randomness

Last Last round

yosh ~ go go go

♥ Ȃ Ŝw3ĕt sŵėęŧ daʏ of 06 - 06

4 months - how much it means?

Back to camwhore ♥

The girl who addicted to lollipops

告诉我为什么好吗？

emo

借來的男人

Words from HIM

原来它会疼痛

The girl who addicted to lollipops

Sick zzz :'(

JJ Lim - 我还想她

Missing ♥

define opportunity cost

惊醒

♥ 一句简单的话 ♥

LOST

DAY & TIME in Η Ά и Ģ Ť ξ Π

*~ Vitagen ~*

♥

Dilemma

6 - 4 - 2010

Once AGain ~ i back to the look like 3.5 years ago when i started my uni life ~

当眼泪流下来，才知道难过是什么！

~ I wanna be ~

Assignment Fever

Heartbroken

一切竟在不言中

Let the pics tell its all ~

到底是什么?

Life 0_0

累了

Life ~~

HopeLess

Thank You for loving M3

Returning to college life

HalF DaY trip

ICE of the day

03 03 2010

26 - 02 - 2010

THe DaY ~ 25 - 02 - 2010 ~

当我想起你的时候/黄磊;张清芳;黄舒骏

out of my mind

24 - 02 - 2010

Confused

suffering

年初九 - 拜天公

~* HaPpY BirThDaY to Adrian *~

18 February 2010 (4th day of cny)

New Year eve :)

missing

bad-tempered :(

busy + tiring @_@

Working life

Working day 1

柠檬和蓝莓的故事

听我说

bitter >_<

~ Vitagen ~