Friday, October 30, 2009

What's gonna happen next?

Forget & Forgive
wondering my ability on it
I don't want to be pestering in this matter
I really tired of it
I wanna get rid of it
get away from this
Am i able to forget everything?
It's gonna be a change after 10 days!

*qian is really tired*

Thursday, October 29, 2009

First birthday celebration

29 October 2009 (thursday)

The first birthday celebration for 21 years old
Thanks to kien giap who treat me a lunch @ pasta de gohan
It might be too early to celebrate it
yet im happy with it...
I have a nice day & great conversation!
There are left few more days to go...
I get more and more nervous
Even though this year is not a wonderful year for me
I guess it will be great to have friends celebrate with me!
Looking forward on it...

Thursday, October 22, 2009

有我有你也有他和她

已经决定的事
既然下了决心
就不该再改变主意

虽然我心仍有点不舍
心里有说不出的失落
我想这个决定
对我们会是最好的。


其实我还是会想念
开心的时候
希望他会好好过
献上我默默的祝福

21 - 10 - 2009

繁忙的日子
永无止境
两、三个星期
没有真正的休息
没有好好的睡觉
我真的很累
接着下来的日子
会更难熬
因为考试的来临
我对所有科目
一无所知
不得不加把劲的努力
不该让自己、任何人失望

昨天,
我终于可以好好的睡觉
充足的睡眠
让我精神变佳
心情也好转
我断断续续的睡了很久
睡觉是最幸福的事

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Debbi

My lovely debbi
*I miss debbi so much*
but i just cant take it out anymore!

First time

This is my first time to be treated like that in my life
i was kinda sad with it
and yet i just don't wish to raise it
and i just wanna keep it silent
i thought everything will be ok
but then at the end,
things that i doesn't want it to be happen
and it happen eventually.
I blame myself for getting out of control
My bad temper mess up everything
I was wondering and keep asking myself
why?
calm down girl,
i shouldnt angry, getting mad and cry....
I know i'm not allowed to cry
but the tears dropped itself
sighs..

im moody now
leave me alone and quietly.....

It's a bad day

I had a bad day
haiz...................
what to blame? who to blame?
no one and shouldn't be blaming anything or anyone
i was pretty sad
my mood spoil because of him
i just don't know why i will go mad on him
This guy really sucks....
and i really can't stand to his attitude towards me
i was wondering whether my request too high or
i can't understand him, or he is just too bad for me or
the way i think is immature?
Guess we have different point of view
For me, he really fail to fulfil
even just the very basic thing that a guy need to have............
*kinda disappointed*

I hate "sorry"
stop repeating it again and again
yet You don't know what's wrong with you
For me, "Sorry no cure"
I hate sorry..... lame....
don't ever say it again if you don't know what's wrong with you!

What's a bad day!
sad :(

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Debbi

Suddenlly
i miss debbi so much...
*i want debbi*
forever in my heart
Never be replaced......

Saturday, October 17, 2009

我累了,
我无法坚持了,
我是否撑得下去,
一个人的日子不好过,
我真的累了。

靠在他的肩旁,
真的好舒服,
这一刻
我轻松了许多,
我闭上眼睛,
偷偷的享受了
这一秒的无虑。

他的抱抱,
我很温暖,
受到他的疼爱
我很安慰
却一次又一次误以为是他人。

他的陪伴,
我不想令它成为一种习惯
不要一次又一次的依赖
我不想利用他
也不要把感情建立在彼此互相利用之间

我是否不该如此倔强
到底坚持着什么?

你我之间

好想让你知道
很希望让你了解
也明白我的感受
但我却无能为力
总是把事情复杂化。。。


找不回当天的心动
令我无法坚持下去
却自私的不想放手

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

14 - 10 - 2009

I was pretty sad and yet i dont know what's the reason
and i just feel like wanna cry

I cried because i always make people around me unhappy

im useless.....

I dont wish to see anyone of them getting sad because of me
keep me alone...

Think back about the past,
its really a pain for me,
which leave me a big scar right inside my heart,
a wound that never seems to be heal until now...

I feel so sorry to him,
I don't know what to say besides apologize,
i appreaciate his understanding...
Thanks You !

*~ the only thing i wish is to maintain everything in my life without any changes ~*

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Beauty Expo

A tiring day for me
but i enjoy my day
today, i dress up nicely and put some light make up
I feel happy with it...
*excited to go beauty expo again*
i feel so lucky that got people accompany me go there
and help me to carry all the stuff & giving me some opinion
Happy to get all the stuff i want...
*overspending again*

A lot of things happen today!
This is my first time that i spending the whole night with people that i don't know
*with him and his fren which i don't know anyone of them...*
Erm... i think its ok for me.. but my tiredness make my mood gone
luckily he fetch me back home, if not i sure will get angry over him

a great day actually......

All of the sudden

im wondering
why all this happen in so sudden
i couldn't digest and accept any changes
i do not have any preparation for all this
i really scare... *i dont wish to hurt you and yet i know i might did that*
i confused... *i dont know what actually happen now*
i worried... *something that i dont wish to see it happen will eventually happen*
i blur... *blur - should i continue to be like this*
i stun...

I don't know why...
I don't understand...
I scare of making a wrong decision
what should i do now?
what i want? what you want? what he want?

2 + 10 = 12 - 10 - 2009

Happy mid-autumn festival

BBQ with family members
I really enjoys much today even though i feel tired...
*happy*


*~ Our hardwork ~*

the best celebration of mid-autumn festival i had

appreaciate it so much

Thanks for everything i had

Monday, September 28, 2009

New hair style

New Hair style, New life, New qian


梁詠琪 - 短髮

Mid-sem break

I had fully utilise the whole week break
I have been spending few days to complete the video
for me, its not perfect but satisfied...
happy to get things done..


I went shopping with my family.
They accompany me shop for the birthday present for few hours.
So nice... even though i spend alot and yet i didnt get the stuff i like for myself
im happy that i get nice present for my dad, sister, alice and aaron.
Just hope that they will like the present too.

Alice's birthday celebration @ korean bbq taipan
Goey, alice & me
we were trying the korean food for first time
quite shame as we don't know how to eat
luckily the staff there is very kind and teach us one by one
the bbq chicken is delicious.. i love bbq chicken..
the soup is nice and spicy.. HOT HOT..
comfortable environment and all staffs there are nice!
-- always my lovely one -- *heart*


Movie time
I went to watch -where got ghost- with my parents and my aunt and her family.
Its quite funny.. somehow i get disappointed as the movie constituted 3 different stories
which i don't really like it..
I guess my expectation too high so that i disappointed.

Time v friend
Now only i realize that we had been friend for 10 years.
sound like we are getting old already...
looking back 10 years ago, we were still kids and studying & playing around together
Now we are busying with our life.
problems arise more and more,
we got to learn to accept fact, handle it and be strong.
i might not able to fully understand how ur feel, but i will always support you no matter what.
To yong yong: Please take good care of yourself, do what you think is right! I support you!

Another day again,
i went out shopping with my cousin
we were chit chat while having our tea time.
she told me alots and her experience that how to earn money
i wish i can learn from her
she can earn alot of money and have a good life even though she not good in study.
but she is willing to learn.
So, i had decided to take the nail art course. i wish i can achieve the life that i want to..

The night,
mamak-ing with those form 5 friends,
its been long time that we didnt mamak together.
like usual, it is still few of us hanging out together.
somehow, i can feel some strange and distance,
maybe we are not always together,
topics getting lesser and not really know how...
but still having some fun with you guys!
looking forward to the next trip.

Another busy day,
I promised myself that i won't step out my room today
must guai guai stay in room doing audit assignment
but i cant hold it..
A call from my cousin who ask for help to be her practice model,
im not able to reject it..
So, i went out again.....

Today,
the last day of my holidays,
went back to my grandma house @ sasaran
its been so long i didnt go back there..
as when the sem start,
everyday got so busy....

Time pass so fast...
and its never stop...
i wonder when i can have a healthy life...

Monday, September 21, 2009

Study Break

BUSY LIFE

Time management is really important

as i got not enough time to spend on

Have to decide which one come first and what to do later

life is sucks with so many things happen in once

I hate assignmentssss...... i hate attend lecture and tutorial...

WHat the purpose of it? i do not know...

i want a healthy life.......

Thursday, September 17, 2009

emo-ing

Kinda emo for these 2 days

I can't really find out what actually happen on me

Feel sad and crying at the night

I just wish to be left alone and quietly

don't feel like talking to people

Monday, September 14, 2009

opportunity cost

In economics, there is a theory - opportunity cost

which defined as the next best alternatives that we forgo in order to

achieve the best one...

I wonder what is my opportunity cost here,

In order to accomplish one of my wish,

i need to forgo/ postpone the next option which i wish to get it as well.

i wish to go travel, and now im put in alot of effort

trying to collect enough money for it

On the other hand, i wish to taking the course of manicure

I only afford to choose one of it

last time, i got think of want to be manicurist...

but there are still more factors to be considered as well...

I couldn't simply make a decision

Seriously, i don't know what should i do?

I hope i can make a right decision soon....