到底是什么?

生气他
让我依赖着他

讨厌他
一直让我接受他的好

不想持续下去
却自私的不愿放手

因为：

第一次
有着被宠坏的感觉
也被细心地呵护着...

他给了：

体贴的照顾
更多的安慰
无限的安心
信心、鼓励
时刻的陪伴
欢乐加娱乐

我想对他说：

谢谢！因为他让我过得很好。

有时，
我会担心、害怕：

再次失去拥有的
承担不起、
负荷不了再次的打击
伤害他人
忽略他人的感受

而
现在的我
却不知所措。。。

Life 0_0

Start working lately...
busying with assignments, study & work
feel damn tired as i lack of sleeping hours
but say honestly, im really happy and enjoys when i work as compare with study
I don't mind being so tired & lack of entertainment
but i just wish to have support from all of you
i feel pretty sad that no one would support my decision
*sighs*
support + comfort is all i want!

累了

其实，
我想说，
我长大了

其实，
我想说，
我懂事了

希望：

让你看见
我的努力

让你明白
我的一切

让你知道
我要的是什么

我想告诉你
我真的累了

我想要的
是多一点的慰问与支持

我想要的
是再多一点的自由

我奢望的
是你们的信任与肯定

因为我真的可以过得很好！

Life ~~

It's gonna be a busy life onwards yet im ok with it...

I'm busy... so i may not be able to update my blog

but pics will tell it all...


Audit Crash Course - Audit Again (my worst subject)

# after working #

study + assignments + working + socialize + entertainment = happy - emo + stress

HopeLess

I don't know what i am doing now.
I feel stupid & dumb
My heart is beating
My heart is crying
My tears worthless
I thought im strong
I thought im ok
I thought im heal
in fact, im just cheating myself
why am i bother so much?
why im so kepo?
why im being stupid once again?
sighs... :'(
perhaps i need pain killer...

Thank You for loving M3

Returning to college life

It's been awhile after i complete my previous sem
I was busy with my holidays, working & cny outing
MY 3 months holidays just gone like that with pics and memories left in my mind
-my birthday party -
- penang trip -
- dinner with frens -
- christmas eve outing -
- connie's birthday party -
- working @ ＨＡＮＧＴＥＮ-
- tea with frens -
- shopping, movie, & tea -
*its really alots*

NEW YEAR -- NEW SEM -- NEW LIFE -- NEW IMAGE -- NEW QIAN

I believe that the previous qian wouldn't come back again
yet the current one doesn't good at all...
SO, its gonna be a BIG BIG change for her AGAIN ~~
How far she would go, its still remain unknown
YOU gonna find it out so soon!
HOPE SHE REALLY CAN BE THE ONE :)
thanks for giving all the support people...

TIME BACK TO COLLEGE AGAIN - NEW ENVIRONMENT -
just hoping that the sadness will fade away by leaving the saddest place in her life
everything start from new AGAIN ~


09 - 03 - 2010 *lunch time* + * lecture time*



11 - 03 - 2010 # time for fun in library & study #



blur qian with no direction in her life

HER current objective - to feel again what is happy, to check out the answer for happiness!

what qianqian long for now is

he won't intrude her life anymore!

NEVER AGAIN...

IT SHOULD BE END

HalF DaY trip

07 - 03 - 2010
Its SUN-DAY OUTING
headed to Tanjung Sepat for seafood
The place which took around 2 hours to reach from Klang
it's further down from Morib...
~ so excited + happy ~
satisfied with the 2 breakfast i had

WHAT we did for the 2 hours in car?

IN CAR - - listen to the song, watch dvd - alvin & the chipmunks *its cute*, take pic, bluetooth each other ringtones & chit-chat... hehe :p

I feel the wind ~ whee ~


always the one of me - qian & my cousin bro called *zheng* -





WHAT AM I THINKING AT THE MOMENT?

THE CRAB cooked with salted egg are nice - like it like it *yeppi*

They laughed at me as i took pic for everything

Yeah~ i like snapshot!

@ Sepang Gold Coast Resorts * its still under construction *

Just have a look there... & all of them knew that i like to take pic

so they specially stop by and let me take pic.. hoho...

*seaside*

i like the wind blowing towards me

make me feel so comfortable...

its make me miss the moment at redang!

i miss beach & the blue sea!

wondering when is my next time @ beach...

Thanks for giving me such a nice day

it's enjoyable to the max

i feel the warmth

sense the wind

& everything gonna be alright!

ICE of the day

Nothing special for today..
its damn boring day
attend lecture as usual, meet with frens, & settle my stuff
My mood is not really good
& someone make the herbal tea for me *to cool me down*
but its taste sucks...
no sweet at all... i don't like it
i prefer the red bean soup *last time*

I don't know why today i feel so mood-less when im with him
kinda sien...
don't feel like talking yet i want his companion
really so 'mao dun'

*serious face*

monkey with monkey shirt

hehe :)

03 03 2010

It's 3rd day after college reopen
my laziness conquer me badly
i just don't have any spirit & motivation
to go on with my studies
and yet i can't give up on it
i wish to have more and more encouragement
am i deserve for anything?
I know that i have bunch of friends
who support me right behind me
I feel great to have you guys with me

spend my free time in new library
it's really a good place to take nap...
hehe... & playing snapshot here.. :)

always the one - ~* bff *~

I am who i am - qianqian

26 - 02 - 2010

I had been spending whole day at station one
sitting there for around 6 hours
time past fast when im with him
i told him alot of things that
had been keep in my heart for long time
the atmosphere for that night is really great!

hardly can get someone who can listen to my heart

talk to me and accompany me

the only thing that i can say is

Thanks to him!

THe DaY ~ 25 - 02 - 2010 ~

Nice Outing

Tiring day

as i can't sleep at the night before

been crying for whole Night

MY mind & heart full with mixture of feeling

wondering alot of thing

i feel so helpless

MOvie for today

- damn funny -

laugh non stop &

feel nice to be with him

all the sadness will be just part aside

for the moment now

~* I'm happy to be with him *~

i'll try my best to smile as much as i can

当我想起你的时候/黄磊;张清芳;黄舒骏

当我想你的时候 我的心在颤抖
当我想你的时候 泪水也悄悄地滑落
当我想你的时候 才知道寂寞是什么
当我想你的时候 谁听我诉说

out of my mind

I'm speechless for this moment

hardly to put my feeling into words

& i don't know how to express it

- nothing gonna happen -

- nothing gonna happen -

- nothing gonna happen -

its really nothing gonna happen

i beg it

- nothing gonna happen -

24 - 02 - 2010

~ Nice outing ~

*purple for the day*

*with powerless spec*

~ after hair cut & prepare to do colours ~

*siao po qian*

- finally, it's done -

i like the spec

- he is the one -

i like my hair so much

thanks to him!

the day for you and me :p

Confused

不知所措的感觉
是那么的无助
那么的彷徨
对与错
是与非
真与假
我不知道
我分不清
我无法解释

suffering

23 February 2010


事情总是来得太突然，
令我无法在瞬间消化，
到底接着会发生什么事，
我真的很想知道。

今天肚子痛了一整天，
连腰也非常的酸痛，
真的很累了。
非常的辛苦！

年初九 - 拜天公

好开心哦！

因为我又回到了

我最熟悉的地方

令我最安心的避风港！

今天是年初九 - 拜天公

回想起四年前，

真的好怀念过去。。。

也忆起了小时候的日子

人总是需要长大，

日子一天天过，

我们也渐渐地长大，

肩膀上背负的责任与担子

也随着时间的流逝，

渐渐地变得沉重

烦恼也有增无减!

its doesn't taste really nice

yet i still eat it

hehe :)

不管发生什么事
日子还是要过
笑容依然要保持

~* HaPpY BirThDaY to Adrian *~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

to

Adrian

It's a surprise party for you &

yet its not surprised

There is someone who plan and put alot of effort

for this party

which you may not know it all

This is my first time went to Italiannies

the food there is not really as nice as i thought

but yet it is still ok

I like my look for the day

the dress that chosen by someone

4eva we remains
♥ nothing gonna change ♥

love ya always

* heart her *
- i need more time to hang out with her -

dear

i will give all my support to you

whenever you need it

i'll be there for you

cheer you like you cheer me always

muahz...

we must be strong enough!