20 - 06 - 2013 (Thursday)

Finally ~ It's done

The day that we complete the puzzle :)

feeling great when he is there with me just for the puzzle!

Puzzle life ★

without any notice, the story start...

Two months ago, we were still somebody strange and now we're getting close to certain distance *i guess*... just like the puzzle, day after day, piece by piece till it is complete some day!

I enjoyed every single minute spent with him regardless of what we are doing.

The first gift from him - Puzzle
I appreciated & feel very happy that he actually bought it for me. The moment i'm doing it - i like especially when he is beside me to accompany me. Every single hug touched my heart ❤

Second gift from him - Teddy
The little surprised from him. Felt in love with the bear when first saw it. Decided to name it as Teddy :) - so cute & adorable.

Something that he don't know...

I like his hug
I like his caring
I like his singing
I like his companion
I like his soft & attentive
I like his cuteness like a kid
I like the moment when i open my eyes, I see him

I just couldn't explain why...

小小幸福 ❤

Those messing weeks,

things getting complicated,

problems left unsolved,

argument flying all over the corner,

gossip never stop,

all plan screwed up,

troubles non stop......

Yet, it doesn't matter!

The intruders coloured and cheer my day 

and i smile :)

his name ~ Teddy ~ my companion ❤

& the only one  ❤ who support me all the time!! Thanks babe ~

趁早

有些回忆即使你把它搁在一旁，
它始终还是存在。
那段日子仿佛噩梦般地缠绕，
令人不想再回顾。
庆幸的是，
我从噩梦中惊醒，
看清了许多事实。

很多时候的我们，

经历了，

才学会如何更勇敢，

才懂得怎样去了解！

2013 ~ Ulala

Happy CNY ~ ulala...

Count down 2 days,
Hardly can feel that cny is around the corner &
this is the first time that i dont have any preparation for cny just within the week of CNY
kinda lost of myself and blurred to be me :/

Changing A new hairstyle ~ just for this 2013 CNY
kiddy look ♥
its been some time since i have such fringe
finally my hair is getting longer.
Hope the good luck will shower me with this new look :p

♥ 仪蒨 ♥

before & after (somehow im missing the previous hair)

2.1.2013

WORKING DAY 1 ☆

A kinda relaxing day. Everything goes smooth and my mood is so damn good weh :)
I can't believe few days ago, I'm so tension and stress like hell and now i feel like in the heaven.. *teehee* ~ I can have my very powerful breakfast, proper lunch & nice mum homecook dinner. Feeling so satisfy & xing fu.

Gotta working hard and smart towards my GOAL. TAN YI QIAN, MUST DO IT!

An ice-cream to cheer my day *lovely*

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013

31.12.12
stress release on NYE ~
went @live for clubbing and it's my first time NYE celebration!!
It's a drunkie night and I got all blurred & dizziness :p
Actually I wish that Mr. C will be the one that I want to hang out with... yet I didn't manage to see him for n days already. I'm always wondering when is the next time that I'll meet you up again!
The night was high & fun. ~ MUSIC ~ DANCE ~ DRINK ~

* One of the important person in my life & loves *

MY OUTFIT of the Night *White as the theme*

Sweet Bitter Sour ❤

It's like the blink of an eye...

the beginning become the end

another chapter of story turn into memory book

★ ☆ 2012 ☆ ★

这一路

我跑过、走过、跳过 、爬过，也跌倒过，

我曾哭过、埋怨过、失望过......

一切的一切，

就这样在不知不觉中，熬过了。

辛苦不再是苦

因为挫折总会把我们磨练得更坚强

错误中学习成长

人总不会苦一辈子，只是会苦一阵子。

所以我选择了改变，让自己的未来是甜的！

2012 ❤ 蒨

谢谢一路上，

陪我走过，

扶过我，

鼓励过我，

帮助过我，

关心我的人。

25KM NEWTON Challenge

Another Challenge Before End of The Year 2012

~ 25KM MARATHON ~

Yes, I did it & We did it! 

Although the process is really very tough and sometimes will feel like wanna give up,

once you get used and get through it,

everything gonna be alright. 

The only clue for this is PERSISTENCY :)

*Round of Applause* to everyone that completed the race

Another Year Another Chapter

Another brand new chapter of my life started from here 10.11.12

I'll make sure the following pages will fill up with all the colours and stories ♥

Thanks to people who step in & out of my life because you guys colour my pages! 

Thanks Girls for always be there for me ♥

BFF ~ We laugh we cried we crazy we have fun & this never ended :p

Always appreciated & thankful :)

不想

很想离开这里 ~
不想面对任何人，
总觉得好累
不想面对任何人
不想说任何事
不想解释，不想找理由
不想听，不想服从
不想着急，不想担心
不想失去。。。

永无止境

受伤流血的痛，
让我觉得很舒服，
提醒我仍然活着，
这都不是梦。
好想让血一直流下去，
我需要疼痛
来唤醒我
我需要疼痛
来掩饰没有伤口的痛
毕竟
流出血的伤口
才有痊愈的机会!

雨天

昨夜，窗外下着雨
我的房间，也不自觉地下起雨了，
浸湿了我的宝贝枕头 - girl girl

我的双手不停的颤抖，
心却是抽抽的刺痛
有说不出的难过
辗转难眠的夜里，
怀着不安的心情，
我不知所措，
一直责备自己，
问自己到底做错了什么？
得到朋友的安慰，
却无法平复波动的情绪，
一通电话，
犹如被骂了又骂，
眼睁睁的到天明。

疲惫的身躯，
伤痕磊磊的心，
我负荷不起
好想。。。

你的拥抱是她的幸福

你的怀里
充满着温暖
是她向往的幸福

你的拥抱
是她最大的安慰
再多的委屈
都不算什么

躺在你怀里，
被疼爱的拥抱，
始终是最感动的。
她却贪心的
要多了一点点

不敢正视你
也只因为深怕自己无法自拔
对你怀有更多的不舍

临走前
还是无法自制地
偷偷的凝视着你的脸
心里有说不出的难过与不舍
也不愿转移视线
转身的那一刻
眼泪不争气的落下
却不愿让你看见
她心碎的那一面
因为她希望把笑容留给你

Everything will be ok :)

I had been away from msn for sometimes. I just need more time for myself to think more deeply about my future and other problems. After having alot of discussions or getting advices from people around me, i have alot of opinion as my reference. but after i talked to him yesterday, then only i realised in his mind and perception, my thinking and plan is so immature. I should have think more deeply and mature.

It comes to a sleepless night. It's midnight 3am, im talking on phone with my fren till 4am. My stomach had been pain since few hours ago. I guess i suffered gastric again. It is painful for the past few days also. :(

There are alot of thinking on these few nights. Im always wonder what should i do? what kind of decision i should make? Towards him, i really have no idea...

How can i breakthrough the end

I cried...
but why is it still so painful
I can't resist the pain
*burst into tears*
Feel like wanna take the knife stab right into it
let it bleed so that i can know where the pain exactly come from
Everything doesn't seems to be alright
nothing makes sense
I dont know how...
why???
why wanna push me to the dead corner?
Am i deserve to be treated that way?

Im trying to smile and laugh as hard as i could
when im with you
cause i want to be remembered as the girl
who always smiles even though when her heart is broken
and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own

leave me alone...

i couldn't tell any pain..

It's fragile

IM SORRY! ~ kor kor
I break the promise :(

Delicate to my dear Natorians

Hope everyone is fine &

having a great life

~ I miss the moment ~

~ I miss all of them ~

miss those days

huggies ♥

New friends

26 - 7 - 2010

After so long...

We meet up again. I was very surprised that he would call me out for tea. Kinda happy that hang out with him! It's been a year since last time we meet each other. He is the one i never forget even though we didn't contact at all.

Also, im happy to know two new friends - Jason & MZ! All of them are hair stylist. So cool right.. haha... the atmosphere is kinda weird as another 2 of them didnt talk much and im the one who talk whole night. lol..

Reach home very late @ 12.45am... Luckily my parents didnt say anything!

- Tony aka Jian Rong - - --------------- - - his brother Jason -

~ MZ ~

~ HOME ~

I been emo / sad / bad tempered for the past few days. Yeah, my mood turn to be good now! It's because i received call from kor kor, get a sms from loong, tea with Jian Rong and alot of care from many ppl.

Today, both of us manage to spend some time chatting and talk to each other. STill, the problems never solve and remain unchange. But, i wouldn't care much of it anymore. More importantly, im happy for who i am...

♥ qianqian

27 - 7 - 2010

happy? excited? fun? All i got it ~

Yeah, kor kor come all the way to klang. we have dinner at Osaka - a japanese restaurant. Another guest joining us which make me a little bit of excited. haha... His name - Jeremy. He is a smart guy, quite ok looking and very nice and friendly. yeah yeah... i know more new friends!
The food recommend by him was delicious. its really worth for the price. I like it so much. i wonder when is the next time eat at there again ~ Super nice dinner and happy :)
Thanks so much to kor kor for call me out and spend me nice dinner.

Cats and Dog

Result release today!
Staring at the screen, looking at the result, it turn out sucks and really disappointing me. im so speechless on the moment. I had no excuses to blame on anything, anyone except myself. I can feel the tears rolling through my cheek.
Supposedly i should have gave my academic record a nice ending yet i screwed it up. Worst result in my life. I just can blame myself for not putting any effort in it. And everything that I work hard for the past 2 years are so wasted. Ended up, it turn out to be so bad.
All this prove that im really useless after all.... :(