不想

很想离开这里 ~
不想面对任何人，
总觉得好累
不想面对任何人
不想说任何事
不想解释，不想找理由
不想听，不想服从
不想着急，不想担心
不想失去。。。

永无止境

受伤流血的痛，
让我觉得很舒服，
提醒我仍然活着，
这都不是梦。
好想让血一直流下去，
我需要疼痛
来唤醒我
我需要疼痛
来掩饰没有伤口的痛
毕竟
流出血的伤口
才有痊愈的机会!

雨天

昨夜，窗外下着雨
我的房间，也不自觉地下起雨了，
浸湿了我的宝贝枕头 - girl girl

我的双手不停的颤抖，
心却是抽抽的刺痛
有说不出的难过
辗转难眠的夜里，
怀着不安的心情，
我不知所措，
一直责备自己，
问自己到底做错了什么？
得到朋友的安慰，
却无法平复波动的情绪，
一通电话，
犹如被骂了又骂，
眼睁睁的到天明。

疲惫的身躯，
伤痕磊磊的心，
我负荷不起
好想。。。

你的拥抱是她的幸福

你的怀里
充满着温暖
是她向往的幸福

你的拥抱
是她最大的安慰
再多的委屈
都不算什么

躺在你怀里，
被疼爱的拥抱，
始终是最感动的。
她却贪心的
要多了一点点

不敢正视你
也只因为深怕自己无法自拔
对你怀有更多的不舍

临走前
还是无法自制地
偷偷的凝视着你的脸
心里有说不出的难过与不舍
也不愿转移视线
转身的那一刻
眼泪不争气的落下
却不愿让你看见
她心碎的那一面
因为她希望把笑容留给你

Everything will be ok :)

I had been away from msn for sometimes. I just need more time for myself to think more deeply about my future and other problems. After having alot of discussions or getting advices from people around me, i have alot of opinion as my reference. but after i talked to him yesterday, then only i realised in his mind and perception, my thinking and plan is so immature. I should have think more deeply and mature.

It comes to a sleepless night. It's midnight 3am, im talking on phone with my fren till 4am. My stomach had been pain since few hours ago. I guess i suffered gastric again. It is painful for the past few days also. :(

There are alot of thinking on these few nights. Im always wonder what should i do? what kind of decision i should make? Towards him, i really have no idea...

How can i breakthrough the end

I cried...
but why is it still so painful
I can't resist the pain
*burst into tears*
Feel like wanna take the knife stab right into it
let it bleed so that i can know where the pain exactly come from
Everything doesn't seems to be alright
nothing makes sense
I dont know how...
why???
why wanna push me to the dead corner?
Am i deserve to be treated that way?

Im trying to smile and laugh as hard as i could
when im with you
cause i want to be remembered as the girl
who always smiles even though when her heart is broken
and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own

leave me alone...

i couldn't tell any pain..

It's fragile

IM SORRY! ~ kor kor
I break the promise :(

Delicate to my dear Natorians

Hope everyone is fine &

having a great life

~ I miss the moment ~

~ I miss all of them ~

miss those days

huggies ♥