What's gonna happen next?

Forget & Forgive
wondering my ability on it
I don't want to be pestering in this matter
I really tired of it
I wanna get rid of it
get away from this
Am i able to forget everything?
It's gonna be a change after 10 days!

*qian is really tired*

First birthday celebration

29 October 2009 (thursday)

The first birthday celebration for 21 years old
Thanks to kien giap who treat me a lunch @ pasta de gohan
It might be too early to celebrate it
yet im happy with it...
I have a nice day & great conversation!
There are left few more days to go...
I get more and more nervous
Even though this year is not a wonderful year for me
I guess it will be great to have friends celebrate with me!
Looking forward on it...

有我有你也有他和她

已经决定的事
既然下了决心
就不该再改变主意

虽然我心仍有点不舍
心里有说不出的失落
我想这个决定
对我们会是最好的。

其实我还是会想念

开心的时候

希望他会好好过

献上我默默的祝福

21 - 10 - 2009

繁忙的日子
永无止境
两、三个星期
没有真正的休息
没有好好的睡觉
我真的很累
接着下来的日子
会更难熬
因为考试的来临
我对所有科目
一无所知
不得不加把劲的努力
不该让自己、任何人失望

昨天，
我终于可以好好的睡觉
充足的睡眠
让我精神变佳
心情也好转
我断断续续的睡了很久
睡觉是最幸福的事

Debbi

My lovely debbi

*I miss debbi so much*

but i just cant take it out anymore!

First time

This is my first time to be treated like that in my life
i was kinda sad with it
and yet i just don't wish to raise it
and i just wanna keep it silent
i thought everything will be ok
but then at the end,
things that i doesn't want it to be happen
and it happen eventually.
I blame myself for getting out of control
My bad temper mess up everything
I was wondering and keep asking myself
why?
calm down girl,
i shouldnt angry, getting mad and cry....
I know i'm not allowed to cry
but the tears dropped itself
sighs..

im moody now
leave me alone and quietly.....

It's a bad day

I had a bad day
haiz...................
what to blame? who to blame?
no one and shouldn't be blaming anything or anyone
i was pretty sad
my mood spoil because of him
i just don't know why i will go mad on him
This guy really sucks....
and i really can't stand to his attitude towards me
i was wondering whether my request too high or
i can't understand him, or he is just too bad for me or
the way i think is immature?
Guess we have different point of view
For me, he really fail to fulfil
even just the very basic thing that a guy need to have............
*kinda disappointed*

I hate "sorry"
stop repeating it again and again
yet You don't know what's wrong with you
For me, "Sorry no cure"
I hate sorry..... lame....
don't ever say it again if you don't know what's wrong with you!

What's a bad day!
sad :(

Debbi

Suddenlly

i miss debbi so much...

*i want debbi*

forever in my heart

Never be replaced......

累

我累了，
我无法坚持了，
我是否撑得下去，
一个人的日子不好过，
我真的累了。

靠在他的肩旁，
真的好舒服，
这一刻
我轻松了许多，
我闭上眼睛，
偷偷的享受了
这一秒的无虑。

他的抱抱，
我很温暖，
受到他的疼爱
我很安慰
却一次又一次误以为是他人。

他的陪伴，
我不想令它成为一种习惯
不要一次又一次的依赖
我不想利用他
也不要把感情建立在彼此互相利用之间

我是否不该如此倔强

到底坚持着什么？

你我之间

好想让你知道
很希望让你了解
也明白我的感受
但我却无能为力
总是把事情复杂化。。。

找不回当天的心动

令我无法坚持下去

却自私的不想放手

14 - 10 - 2009

I was pretty sad and yet i dont know what's the reason
and i just feel like wanna cry

I cried because i always make people around me unhappy

im useless.....

I dont wish to see anyone of them getting sad because of me
keep me alone...

Think back about the past,
its really a pain for me,
which leave me a big scar right inside my heart,
a wound that never seems to be heal until now...

I feel so sorry to him,
I don't know what to say besides apologize,
i appreaciate his understanding...
Thanks You !

*~ the only thing i wish is to maintain everything in my life without any changes ~*

Beauty Expo

A tiring day for me
but i enjoy my day
today, i dress up nicely and put some light make up
I feel happy with it...
*excited to go beauty expo again*
i feel so lucky that got people accompany me go there
and help me to carry all the stuff & giving me some opinion
Happy to get all the stuff i want...
*overspending again*

A lot of things happen today!
This is my first time that i spending the whole night with people that i don't know
*with him and his fren which i don't know anyone of them...*
Erm... i think its ok for me.. but my tiredness make my mood gone
luckily he fetch me back home, if not i sure will get angry over him

a great day actually......

All of the sudden

im wondering
why all this happen in so sudden
i couldn't digest and accept any changes
i do not have any preparation for all this
i really scare... *i dont wish to hurt you and yet i know i might did that*
i confused... *i dont know what actually happen now*
i worried... *something that i dont wish to see it happen will eventually happen*
i blur... *blur - should i continue to be like this*
i stun...

I don't know why...
I don't understand...
I scare of making a wrong decision
what should i do now?
what i want? what you want? what he want?

2 + 10 = 12 - 10 - 2009

Happy mid-autumn festival

BBQ with family members

I really enjoys much today even though i feel tired...

*happy*

*~ Our hardwork ~*

the best celebration of mid-autumn festival i had

appreaciate it so much

Thanks for everything i had