到底是什么?

生气他
让我依赖着他

讨厌他
一直让我接受他的好

不想持续下去
却自私的不愿放手

因为：

第一次
有着被宠坏的感觉
也被细心地呵护着...

他给了：

体贴的照顾
更多的安慰
无限的安心
信心、鼓励
时刻的陪伴
欢乐加娱乐

我想对他说：

谢谢！因为他让我过得很好。

有时，
我会担心、害怕：

再次失去拥有的
承担不起、
负荷不了再次的打击
伤害他人
忽略他人的感受

而
现在的我
却不知所措。。。

Life 0_0

Start working lately...
busying with assignments, study & work
feel damn tired as i lack of sleeping hours
but say honestly, im really happy and enjoys when i work as compare with study
I don't mind being so tired & lack of entertainment
but i just wish to have support from all of you
i feel pretty sad that no one would support my decision
*sighs*
support + comfort is all i want!

累了

其实，
我想说，
我长大了

其实，
我想说，
我懂事了

希望：

让你看见
我的努力

让你明白
我的一切

让你知道
我要的是什么

我想告诉你
我真的累了

我想要的
是多一点的慰问与支持

我想要的
是再多一点的自由

我奢望的
是你们的信任与肯定

因为我真的可以过得很好！

Life ~~

It's gonna be a busy life onwards yet im ok with it...

I'm busy... so i may not be able to update my blog

but pics will tell it all...


Audit Crash Course - Audit Again (my worst subject)

# after working #

study + assignments + working + socialize + entertainment = happy - emo + stress

HopeLess

I don't know what i am doing now.
I feel stupid & dumb
My heart is beating
My heart is crying
My tears worthless
I thought im strong
I thought im ok
I thought im heal
in fact, im just cheating myself
why am i bother so much?
why im so kepo?
why im being stupid once again?
sighs... :'(
perhaps i need pain killer...

Thank You for loving M3

Returning to college life

It's been awhile after i complete my previous sem
I was busy with my holidays, working & cny outing
MY 3 months holidays just gone like that with pics and memories left in my mind
-my birthday party -
- penang trip -
- dinner with frens -
- christmas eve outing -
- connie's birthday party -
- working @ ＨＡＮＧＴＥＮ-
- tea with frens -
- shopping, movie, & tea -
*its really alots*

NEW YEAR -- NEW SEM -- NEW LIFE -- NEW IMAGE -- NEW QIAN

I believe that the previous qian wouldn't come back again
yet the current one doesn't good at all...
SO, its gonna be a BIG BIG change for her AGAIN ~~
How far she would go, its still remain unknown
YOU gonna find it out so soon!
HOPE SHE REALLY CAN BE THE ONE :)
thanks for giving all the support people...

TIME BACK TO COLLEGE AGAIN - NEW ENVIRONMENT -
just hoping that the sadness will fade away by leaving the saddest place in her life
everything start from new AGAIN ~


09 - 03 - 2010 *lunch time* + * lecture time*



11 - 03 - 2010 # time for fun in library & study #



blur qian with no direction in her life

HER current objective - to feel again what is happy, to check out the answer for happiness!

what qianqian long for now is

he won't intrude her life anymore!

NEVER AGAIN...

IT SHOULD BE END

HalF DaY trip

07 - 03 - 2010
Its SUN-DAY OUTING
headed to Tanjung Sepat for seafood
The place which took around 2 hours to reach from Klang
it's further down from Morib...
~ so excited + happy ~
satisfied with the 2 breakfast i had

WHAT we did for the 2 hours in car?

IN CAR - - listen to the song, watch dvd - alvin & the chipmunks *its cute*, take pic, bluetooth each other ringtones & chit-chat... hehe :p

I feel the wind ~ whee ~


always the one of me - qian & my cousin bro called *zheng* -





WHAT AM I THINKING AT THE MOMENT?

THE CRAB cooked with salted egg are nice - like it like it *yeppi*

They laughed at me as i took pic for everything

Yeah~ i like snapshot!

@ Sepang Gold Coast Resorts * its still under construction *

Just have a look there... & all of them knew that i like to take pic

so they specially stop by and let me take pic.. hoho...

*seaside*

i like the wind blowing towards me

make me feel so comfortable...

its make me miss the moment at redang!

i miss beach & the blue sea!

wondering when is my next time @ beach...

Thanks for giving me such a nice day

it's enjoyable to the max

i feel the warmth

sense the wind

& everything gonna be alright!

ICE of the day

Nothing special for today..
its damn boring day
attend lecture as usual, meet with frens, & settle my stuff
My mood is not really good
& someone make the herbal tea for me *to cool me down*
but its taste sucks...
no sweet at all... i don't like it
i prefer the red bean soup *last time*

I don't know why today i feel so mood-less when im with him
kinda sien...
don't feel like talking yet i want his companion
really so 'mao dun'

*serious face*

monkey with monkey shirt

hehe :)

03 03 2010

It's 3rd day after college reopen
my laziness conquer me badly
i just don't have any spirit & motivation
to go on with my studies
and yet i can't give up on it
i wish to have more and more encouragement
am i deserve for anything?
I know that i have bunch of friends
who support me right behind me
I feel great to have you guys with me

spend my free time in new library
it's really a good place to take nap...
hehe... & playing snapshot here.. :)

always the one - ~* bff *~

I am who i am - qianqian

26 - 02 - 2010

I had been spending whole day at station one
sitting there for around 6 hours
time past fast when im with him
i told him alot of things that
had been keep in my heart for long time
the atmosphere for that night is really great!

hardly can get someone who can listen to my heart

talk to me and accompany me

the only thing that i can say is

Thanks to him!