qianqian's 21st birthday celebration

my cake - chocolate indulgence

*didn't manage to eat the cake*

*big surprise*

i feel touched & tears ~~

*make a wish*

*im the princess of the day*

qianqian's family

qianqian's uncle & aunt & cousin

friends who always with me

*bef she*

*~ love ya always ~*

*qian v lollipops*

21 lollipops

The greatest birthday i ever had

You guys make my life colourful

& full with sweetness

just like the lollipops in my hands

Thank YOu

Memorable day

26 - 11 - 2009

The day i long for finally had come!
My feeling is full of mixture of happy excited and alot which
i can't put it in words..
Audit paper is still ok for me,
Im not really able to do it
but i just try my best to write whatever i can
Hope i can get through it...

After exam, i really don't have much time left
still got many stuff haven't do
i was running here and there to get things done
im tired but im happy with it..
hehe...
my party in few hours time..
can't wait for it anymore...

Im satisfied with the make up and the hair style tonight!
I like my hair with highlight in blue so much...
I'm late for my party...
sorry for keeping u guys waiting for me!

The big surprised really make me feel touched and happy.
I don't know what i can say to you guys besides thanks
I like it so much! my tears almost drop when i turn around and saw the scene
OMG! all this is what i want and you guys make it for me!
LOve youuuu alllllllll so much!!
Thanks my dear frens.............................................................

For those who really spend time to make it for me,
i really happy and wanna thanks to you all....
glad to have you all celebrate with me

Im extremely happy!!
enjoys and memorable :)
THanks my dear family and friends!

The day before my last paper & birthday party

25 - 11 - 2009

Finally left one more to go -->> audit

I left one day to study and yet im busy with my party stuff

I don't have enough time to prepare and study!

I spend my day on other stuff in stead of study...

end up, i can't finish study my audit

Thanks to hong that teach me last minutes and also ur support...

i really wish i can pass!

my nail is nice with those nail art do by my cousin's gf...

thanks to her! like her so much...

After tomorrow, i gotta enjoys my life till the fullest!

there are more plans waiting for me...

Look forward to it!

ICBM

23 - 11 - 2009 Monday

This is another nightmare for me
I don't know how to do and struggling in exam hall
all the part b questions i do not know
we are required to choose 3 out of 4 questions
at the end, i just manage to finish one question
and that question i got no confidence at all
the rest i just leave blank without answering it
as my mind was totally blank at that moment
This time really can die and fail miserably
i have to get at least 45% out of 100% in order to pass the subject
i wonder how i gonna pass the paper that i just did 56%!
pray hard to pass!
i almost cry after exam!
no mood to continue study for next paper...
i'm really exhausted...

Nightmare

16 & 17 /11/2009

That night is really a nightmare for me
which i dare not to think back again
I been suffering like hell for the whole night
THE really almost kill me
Im glad that everything is over now!
everything back to normal
i can sleep and eat like normal
i do not vomit again and again
I can see the blue sky, feel the wind, breathe the air
this is the first time i can smile right after exam
even though i didn't manage to do well
Just hope that i able to get through & do not need to repeat again

thanks to those who help me, accompany me, advice me, comfort me, encourage me....

I'm officially 21

10 - 11 - 2009

Finally i'm 21 years old
a change from a girl to young adult
Im glad to receive all the greetings and wishes last night
I feel good when my phone keep ringing
kinda happy to see it
I been waiting his name to appear on my phone screen
I was disappointed when things doesn't turn out as i expect
I didn't know that i expected so much from him!
*emo-ing & crying for the first time on my birthday*
Luckily, i got hong who brighten up my day..
Thanks for lending me your ears
Thanks to hong for his birthday song through phone call
I'm happy to receive all the birthday wishes through sms, facebook and call...
My facebook wall is full with all the wishes for the first time

* 10 - 11 - 2009 *

as normal as usual

the day which is full of wishes
but

I do not have nice lunch

I don't have family dinner

I just can

faced my laptop

stay on my bed for the whole night

&

being alone

*that morning*

*the first present*

(look like a daddy with his daughter)

*it's a card and cash that i want*

love ya

thanks for everything

*present from daddy*

*the birthday card make by my little sis*

*I got the gold key*

*i just wish it will be the key of freedom*

this is what i long for

I would like to thanks all my friends, family members, relatives for all the wishes

Love you all so much

Thanks to all of you who cherish me all the ways!

Last Day being 20

The feeling now is kinda weird
and hard to put it in words
This is totally different with
the last day of being 18 years old
something that i wish won't come true
what i long for is just gone like that
im sad of it
but its doesn't matter

After today,
everything gonna change
time never stop,
i should learn and change...

*make wishes*
- dream come true -

Big girl don't cry

don't wanna burst out in tears

don't wanna get hurt again

don't wanna fall for him

dont' wanna get lost

don't wanna sad

i believe

everything gonna be ok

soon

~Happy 21 years old~

Half awake

why don't i get fully drunk?
i wish im totally drunk
i wanna feel it
i wish to escape from thinking of him
some day,
i gonna get rid of you and your reflection out of my mind
the past memory would be erase permanently...
but for now,
im suffering like hell...
fucking pain in my heart!!!

*can't you see my heart is bleeding because of you?*

*tears drop right inside my heart*

*yet u can't feel it*

i'm drunk yet im so awake

what the hell in my mind