Half awake

why don't i get fully drunk?
i wish im totally drunk
i wanna feel it
i wish to escape from thinking of him
some day,
i gonna get rid of you and your reflection out of my mind
the past memory would be erase permanently...
but for now,
im suffering like hell...
fucking pain in my heart!!!

*can't you see my heart is bleeding because of you?*

*tears drop right inside my heart*

*yet u can't feel it*

i'm drunk yet im so awake

what the hell in my mind