First time

This is my first time to be treated like that in my life
i was kinda sad with it
and yet i just don't wish to raise it
and i just wanna keep it silent
i thought everything will be ok
but then at the end,
things that i doesn't want it to be happen
and it happen eventually.
I blame myself for getting out of control
My bad temper mess up everything
I was wondering and keep asking myself
why?
calm down girl,
i shouldnt angry, getting mad and cry....
I know i'm not allowed to cry
but the tears dropped itself
sighs..

im moody now
leave me alone and quietly.....