dumb dumb ever

Finally, the final exam is started. COunt down 3 left ~
Yesterday, I had my first paper - IBPF and i screwed up on it
At first, i thought im doing well for the paper
aiks.. Later on, I realize that i had did a very stupid mistake
How can i copy answer blindly without reading the question carefully
wtf im doing now.. haiz... Thats the first stupid mistake that i did
I feel so dumb & stupid :(



Im feeling exhausted after this paper yet i couldn't rest or sleep when i reach home
Maybe im too tired plus the stupid mistake affected my mind
sighs...

Bad Luck

I don't know why recently all bad things happen on me. At first i got sick and all those painful, then my phone spoil and... I wish to have more luck for my final exam. I just hope all the bad things happen now and won't happen for my final ~ It will be enough for me.

Kinda heartache after listen all those words. It hits my heart badly :( I wonder what is true... *emo*

Yesterday (17 June 2010), I feel really tired after went out for whole day. Finally, i able to sleep well after so long. Its been more than 2 weeks that i didn't manage to have a good sleep. Maybe this is because of my mood turn to be good. Im happy that he accompany me study for whole afternoon.

It's time to start NOW ~ yet i dont hv motivation..

he is the only one who can motivate me

yet he did nothing...

sighs!

BabY GURL ♥

How much i wish i can be his only baby girl

cherish me like he did always

I knew that he don't like me to rely on him so much

I had been pestering him since i fell sick

I had no idea...

perhaps i need a way to keep myself

from stick with him &

stay away from him

Im always trying my best on it ~

I wish im the one bb ♥

New Puppy in the house

wow...

This is my first time i meet him

~ little cuties ~

My cousin just bought it

It is a Schnauzer

but the colour of fur doesn't look like the usual one

not 100% pure

white colour really so nice

as white as the snow

I like it so much...

he is just 3 months baby only

still small size as compare to kino

New puppy

This is kino

He is very cute & smart oh :)

温馨的小事

昨天，我去了Old Town， 在那里消耗了差不多有六个小时。原以为出来外面，空气比较流通，也比较能专心的读书，可是我还是心不在焉。很多时候，我都是在发呆，望着店门口人来人往的走廊或是在店里的客人。

其中，有一桌人吸引了我的目光，我的视线一直都无法从他们身上离开。在我眼里，他们是一个非常温馨的家庭，由爸爸妈妈带着一对子女，还有爷爷和奶奶。另外还有一个老婆婆却不知道他们是什么关系。我猜想是奶奶的姐妹吧！她的声音最引起我的注意。我可以很清楚的听到她亲切的与孙子的对话。一家人一起在外面喝下午茶，是多么的温馨，是多么幸福的事呀！我真的非常羡慕，一直默默地渴望拥有这样的机会，却是从未实现的期待。如今，这份期待也只能保存在我心里成为永远的期待！曾几何时，我也有阿公阿麽疼，当时还小的我，却不懂得去珍惜，现在的我，是多么渴望与羡慕那些仍有着公公婆婆疼的小孩。希望他们会好好珍惜这一段美好的亲情！

在那一家人走的时候，我看见老婆婆和老奶奶手牵着手地一起走。那一幕，真令人心动！

当我想念我的公公婆婆时，

我只能在回忆里，

或是梦中，

与他们想见了！

S!CK

I fell sick since last week and this push me even more pressure on my studies.

At first it is just a small matter of flu + sore throat. Doctor gave me the flu medicine and will be recover after few days of rest. One week later, my flu almost heal and here the sore throat came again. sighs.. As recently i always burn midnight oil, lack of sleeping hours and also water, sore throat getting serious. Due to too stressful, i got headache on wednesday night and i forced to swallow 2 panadol to relief my pain. Next day, the pain seems never reduced and i got so suffered and he sent me to clinic to seek for consultation from doctor again. Doctor asked me to get enough sleep and drink more water. She said if continue like this, i might get fever.

After taken lunch with him, he forced me to eat the medicine. After that, I didn't feel headache and blur blur already. I felt better. Once i reach home, i took a short nap.

Argh... The worst really happen to me. i woke up at 8pm and didn't have my dinner. That time, i feel so cold & i was suspected got fever already. I called him and wanna tell him that im really suffered but he seems no reaction and busy with his works. So, after few hours my fever goes until very high and i really don't know what to do. My dad went out and bought me dinner. AFter i taken my dinner then only take the medicine again. That night is real suffer, pain and cold + hot for me. Some more, i wait for him whole night to online and at the end, i was so disappointed that he didn't.

That night i really can't sleep well as i got cold & hot again and again. Also, my back was so painful until i can't sleep. On friday, he came meet me. We have breakfast together and he feed me with porridge. *teehee* Sick people should have such a privilege.

I thought im getting better and i study @ old town for the whole afternoon. I spent 5 hours there & i actually can't focus on it and didn't study much due to the painful of my back & my condition doesn't seems to be good. argh... im damn stress and worried ~ :(

Then, i got high fever again. AFter he done his work, he accompany me. I feel so comfortable to lay on him and warm that he hug me. Although im really very suffered at the moment, Im happy to have him beside me and take care of me. After that, i went to clinic again. this is the third time already. I straight away asked doctor to gave me injection as i got no time to wait my sickness heal slowly. I got to study and study.. really the worst case now.

That night, he spare many hours to accompany me because of my sick. He worried about me! :) We had dinner together. It's great even though i have to eat porridge again. After that, he sent me home.

These few days, I really ate alot of painkiller. I wonder will it affect my brain cell. I hope it wont and i wont get stupid after i got high fever for 2 days. lolz...

here is my medicine which make me crazy :(

i hate those medicine.. hate it :'(

Randomness

Im wasting my time blogging here instead of doing my revision. Im sure many of them gonna say me no guai again. haha ~ Due to the killing subject - PFM, im here to release my stress! lol ~ this is just a nonsense excuse.

I still feel lazy to do my revision. Also, i suffered stomach pain this early morning at 5am. Argh.. what's a bad condition to start my day! I slept very late last night and yet awake so much earlier even though i do not have to go college. wth man, im real tired and exhausted. Even my aunt also asked me why i look so dumb and blur with my small eyes last night.



After few days of waiting, finally i get the email. It's a long email that written by him. I can't get into my mind what he wrote even though i read it repeatedly for several times. Anyways, i feel touched when i read the last part even though it is part of the lyric that he copied out from somewhere.

♥ Had a small surprise today! Erm.. maybe I should consider it as my wish come true. haha ~ I been wondering since few days ago that when he will come to find me like previous time. I still remember there is a day that he came all the way to my house and bought something for me as I angry him and 'fa pi qi' towards him. Recently, there are alot of argument & unhappyness happen. And im wonder why he won't bother again which care of me like last time. *disappointed*

Just now he came find me really surprised me. It's like what i think in my mind does come true. :) *Thanks for the lunch & bubble tea* happy with it ~

No matter what gonna happen in coming days, im still believe in our promise.

No matter what troubles you had, be tough and everything gonna be ok ~ support you!

No matter how busy we are, don't forget to slow down, have a rest, thinking of the moment we went through and take care!

No matter how long we didn't meet, im still believe nothing gonna change as long as there is a determination.

Last Last round

It's 9am ~ @ computer lab
I really very tired & so sick now. Flu haven't fully recover here sore throat come again. Today gonna be a tiring day as i got 8 hours continuous classes to attend and all are so important for my final exam. No choice, i force to attend all tutorials. The worst thing is i didn't bring my girl girl along with me. Miss her so much. If i had brought it, I can take a nap in computer lab.

This period is really very tough for me and i just wish i can fully recover soon and gains more spirit to fight for the last one.

IBPF = stress
PFM = What the hell = nightmare
GI = Hopeless
BIS = dying

When i looked at my calendar, I feel panic, worried and scary. Left 2 more weeks to go. Im running out of time. How can i finish up everything in 2 weeks time. sighs.. hopeless :(
Stress level increases... 10% -- 20% -- 40% -- 50% -- 75%

yosh ~ go go go

- moodless to get myself to study -
I can feel that my brain cell die due to revising this subject - IBPF. Finance subjects isn't my line that I familiar with. I can conclude that Finance and ME are two different world. Seriously, i hate finance and i never had score for those subjects. There are the one that i never know and understand since beginning. aiks.. im wondering why im here to study finance. I feel dumb and stupid for all these. x_x

I need more spirit to backup myself for this final round. I always pray hard that im able to get through it but seems like i never put effort to help myself. HOw? Recently I always got distracted by something else. I can't throw those matter aside, and it keep pester me.

I feel very tired after few days of revision. Its really consumed lots of my energy and i feel exhausted. At the end, there is nothing goes into my mind. what i get = 0! now i really look like this 0.0"

But still there is something that cheer me ~ i got my new small pillow lately, i called it girl girl. Coz it look so girl. haha... pinkish & cute with soft fur! oh no.. i just like it so much till i can't leave it away from my hand. :)

Yosh ~ got to back to my IBPF there ~ go go go.. i must do it!

yeah yeah ~ i like to hug it ♥

♥ muahz..

~ abit worried about you as i heard you fall sick ~

~ remember to get well soon oh ~

~ will care of you as how you care of me ~

♥ Ȃ Ŝw3ĕt sŵėęŧ daʏ of 06 - 06

It's exact 4 months ~ time flies till we'll never realize about it. I never think of going out or plan anything in today as final are real coming soon, i got to speed up my revision. Yet, im being procrastinate all the time. sighs.. useless ~

I had a great afternoon :) cherish the moment that i spend with him! I went to Midvalley just now and its so crowded with people. DOn't like it ~ head to sg wang later on. I get the stuff that i want. argh ~ I just keep spend spend spend till im broke. SO much to buy yet so little to spend.

Thought to have some sweet desserts @ My honeymoon Desserts House. But in the end, no time to go already. Nvm, keep it for next time would be great too! I went back home for my dinner. I will feel great and happy if i can have my dinner with him tonight.

~ have little fun too ~ *whee whee* but, each time something unpredictable and unexpectable happened right after happiness. It proved what i said earlier are all correct. I just don't like it.

your ♥ are always the one i want :)

4 months - how much it means?

the day of 4 months ago - 4 February 2010

This is the day that we officially know each other. Im actually afraid of talking to him and i just can peep at him all the time. I got distracted as his serious look when he work really caught my eyes. I was trying to get a chance to talk to him but all of us were so busy at that time.

After few days of working together, I actually have more chance to chat with him. Finally, we are able to joke around when there are no customers in shop. Also, as usual, i will still staring at him whenever im free. I observed the way he work and doing his things and im trying to be like him.

After one week, seems like we had alot of fun together. It's really a great moment even though we were so tired after all. The day without him in shop, i got the feeling of lack of something. I miss having him here! His sms cheer me alot on that time, im glad that he actually understand and considerate of my tiredness and feeling. Also, he appreciate what i did in shop! Im really very happy.

My last day of working - 13 February 2010
This is our first time having meal together. Yeah ~ we had our breakfast at MCD before start working! This meal is the incentive for me to work for the last day on 13 Feb. wow, we were wearing the same monkey shirt on that day. Both shirts also new one.

After resign, at first i worried that we'll never contact again. So I don't have chance to chat or hang out with him again. I never expect that we actually can contact through sms. and Yeah ~ we did! During the whole cny period, we chat through sms and went out together.

15 February 2010
First time that i went out with him. I feel strange and no idea how it goes ~ at the end, everything turn out great. We watched movie together which had lots of laughter, it is great that we had endless conversation. The time that we spent was just too short on that day.

17 February 2010
First time i went shopping with him. He accompany me shop for the stuff that i look for. He brought me to several shopping centre in one day. Also, all the apparel that i bought are chosen by him. *yeah - he is my image consultant who helped me alots with my attire* Thanks to him!

And yes ~ we still keep in touch with each other and going out whenever we're free. Being with him gave me the feeling of secure, going out with him gave me lots of fun, its just feel nice to be with him without any worries or sadness ~

It is no doubt that he is a good listener and companion. Since the day we are friends, he is trying to listen what is actually right inside my heart. He dig out all the painful and hurtful problems which i hide it deep inside my heart. I have no idea that how much effort that he gave in order to make me shout out everything. He is the one who never feel trouble that spend such a long time to listen to my complaints, nagging and all dissatisfaction. When i burst into tears, he stay by my sides, listen to me and helped me wipe all the tears.

His shoulder is always the warmest and most comfortable one that i miss all the time.
His hug is always the best comfort for me.
His care is always the great support to me.

Day after day, we're actually understand each other better. Both of us are used to have each other in our life. It's been lots that we went through together in these 4 months, we built our history, we coloured our memories, we filled our life with sweet, bitter, sour ~

Time is still moving, and everything around us is also keep changing, we can't deny that we're changing also. We'll never realize until we slow down and start to think of & feel it. Everything started with sweet and cheerful scenes. Problems arise due to our ignorance and careless.

I knew that he wish to go back to the starting point which we had the most cheerful and sweet moments. But, everything that we went through already carved and cannot be erase. Im grateful that we went through so much and I really like it so much ~ I like your existence during the moments that i fell to the bottom and hurt badly, i been so down without moving on ~

Yeah ~ EVerything doesn't matter as long as we're happy with our life now ~ We wouldn't know what will happen in the next second, and what we need to do is appreciate what we have for this second! let's play it to the fullest :) ♥

I actually have so much after all
thanks!
I'll never regret on it ~
bbj ♥

Back to camwhore ♥

Yeah ~ im back to camwhore again ♥

i been busy with my assignments, working and alots troubles for the past few weeks. So, my mood was getting so down and everything doesn't look great enough. Now, im free from all troublesome assignments. No more assignments in my life, does it sound great? perhaps its not.. lolz..

There are alot of things happen for the past few weeks. lots... it's been so much that we been through.. I had alot of quality time spent with my beloved.

Loong & cathe came all the way to klang to find me for dinner. omg, im touched! love being with them :) i brought them to eat bak kut teh as dinner, and i had two dinner for that night. *fat fat* This is how i gain weight during these days. haha *_*

Once again, five of us "qian, rain, xuan, fish & aaron" having our great dinner with the hei kor at klang ~ Im still remember that the first time that aaron drove all the way to klang and send me home, that time also 5 of us together :) After dinner, I brought them to the shop i work @ hang ten to promote my polo shirt. lolz.. They bought alot monkey polo shirt ~ YEAH, we can wear the same shirt during roadtrip. *great idea* haha...


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