不想

很想离开这里 ~
不想面对任何人，
总觉得好累
不想面对任何人
不想说任何事
不想解释，不想找理由
不想听，不想服从
不想着急，不想担心
不想失去。。。

永无止境

受伤流血的痛，
让我觉得很舒服，
提醒我仍然活着，
这都不是梦。
好想让血一直流下去，
我需要疼痛
来唤醒我
我需要疼痛
来掩饰没有伤口的痛
毕竟
流出血的伤口
才有痊愈的机会!

雨天

昨夜，窗外下着雨
我的房间，也不自觉地下起雨了，
浸湿了我的宝贝枕头 - girl girl

我的双手不停的颤抖，
心却是抽抽的刺痛
有说不出的难过
辗转难眠的夜里，
怀着不安的心情，
我不知所措，
一直责备自己，
问自己到底做错了什么？
得到朋友的安慰，
却无法平复波动的情绪，
一通电话，
犹如被骂了又骂，
眼睁睁的到天明。

疲惫的身躯，
伤痕磊磊的心，
我负荷不起
好想。。。

你的拥抱是她的幸福

你的怀里
充满着温暖
是她向往的幸福

你的拥抱
是她最大的安慰
再多的委屈
都不算什么

躺在你怀里，
被疼爱的拥抱，
始终是最感动的。
她却贪心的
要多了一点点

不敢正视你
也只因为深怕自己无法自拔
对你怀有更多的不舍

临走前
还是无法自制地
偷偷的凝视着你的脸
心里有说不出的难过与不舍
也不愿转移视线
转身的那一刻
眼泪不争气的落下
却不愿让你看见
她心碎的那一面
因为她希望把笑容留给你

Everything will be ok :)

I had been away from msn for sometimes. I just need more time for myself to think more deeply about my future and other problems. After having alot of discussions or getting advices from people around me, i have alot of opinion as my reference. but after i talked to him yesterday, then only i realised in his mind and perception, my thinking and plan is so immature. I should have think more deeply and mature.

It comes to a sleepless night. It's midnight 3am, im talking on phone with my fren till 4am. My stomach had been pain since few hours ago. I guess i suffered gastric again. It is painful for the past few days also. :(

There are alot of thinking on these few nights. Im always wonder what should i do? what kind of decision i should make? Towards him, i really have no idea...

How can i breakthrough the end

I cried...
but why is it still so painful
I can't resist the pain
*burst into tears*
Feel like wanna take the knife stab right into it
let it bleed so that i can know where the pain exactly come from
Everything doesn't seems to be alright
nothing makes sense
I dont know how...
why???
why wanna push me to the dead corner?
Am i deserve to be treated that way?

Im trying to smile and laugh as hard as i could
when im with you
cause i want to be remembered as the girl
who always smiles even though when her heart is broken
and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own

leave me alone...

i couldn't tell any pain..

It's fragile

IM SORRY! ~ kor kor
I break the promise :(

Delicate to my dear Natorians

Hope everyone is fine &

having a great life

~ I miss the moment ~

~ I miss all of them ~

miss those days

huggies ♥

New friends

26 - 7 - 2010

After so long...

We meet up again. I was very surprised that he would call me out for tea. Kinda happy that hang out with him! It's been a year since last time we meet each other. He is the one i never forget even though we didn't contact at all.

Also, im happy to know two new friends - Jason & MZ! All of them are hair stylist. So cool right.. haha... the atmosphere is kinda weird as another 2 of them didnt talk much and im the one who talk whole night. lol..

Reach home very late @ 12.45am... Luckily my parents didnt say anything!

- Tony aka Jian Rong - - --------------- - - his brother Jason -

~ MZ ~

~ HOME ~

I been emo / sad / bad tempered for the past few days. Yeah, my mood turn to be good now! It's because i received call from kor kor, get a sms from loong, tea with Jian Rong and alot of care from many ppl.

Today, both of us manage to spend some time chatting and talk to each other. STill, the problems never solve and remain unchange. But, i wouldn't care much of it anymore. More importantly, im happy for who i am...

♥ qianqian

27 - 7 - 2010

happy? excited? fun? All i got it ~

Yeah, kor kor come all the way to klang. we have dinner at Osaka - a japanese restaurant. Another guest joining us which make me a little bit of excited. haha... His name - Jeremy. He is a smart guy, quite ok looking and very nice and friendly. yeah yeah... i know more new friends!
The food recommend by him was delicious. its really worth for the price. I like it so much. i wonder when is the next time eat at there again ~ Super nice dinner and happy :)
Thanks so much to kor kor for call me out and spend me nice dinner.

Cats and Dog

Result release today!
Staring at the screen, looking at the result, it turn out sucks and really disappointing me. im so speechless on the moment. I had no excuses to blame on anything, anyone except myself. I can feel the tears rolling through my cheek.
Supposedly i should have gave my academic record a nice ending yet i screwed it up. Worst result in my life. I just can blame myself for not putting any effort in it. And everything that I work hard for the past 2 years are so wasted. Ended up, it turn out to be so bad.
All this prove that im really useless after all.... :(

Melacca one day trip

26 June 2010

... till the day we meet again, the story continue with more fun & jokes. You guys are always the one i treasure much and it never come to end.

Early morning 7am, I received a morning call from long v. SHock man, it's damn early! I went out from home at 8am. THen, went to fetch goey *my sweetheart*, bought our breakfast at KFC drive-thru and fetch Jane *the beauty* and we head on to melacca. Yeppi, so exciting and really a talkative journey!

*FuLL with laughters and happiness*

We reached there in one and half hours, thanks to long v's driving skill & speed. lolx...

So, first place we visit is chicken rice shop to hv our breakfast again. All of us so good in eating. we ate lots and lots

That's great and we gain more energy for the later fun :)

Later on, we went jonker street to shop around and get some souvenir, Nyonya house, eat cendol, satay celup, dataran pahlawan! Alot of walking, sweating and yet funny and happy time.

We took alot of picture with iphone and nokia 5800 because they forget to bring along the digital camera. Still, all the pictures we took are nice. But, we manage to have 2 precious group photo.

the group pic that i like so much

The pic took by no skill man

The two pics which had the story lay behind & make us laugh :)

tiring yet so wonderful day !!

eat alot of food & im so satisfy

Thanks long v for spending us &

be a driver, take care of us for whole day!!

Best sista always :)

Thanks goey & Jane for the fun that you guys gave me

I appreaciate it alots man...

Love ya always

and hope we can hv more chance like today

miss you guys and our journey again

I'm BACK

I had abandon my blog for such a long time, and yeah ~ im back... There are more and more happy and memorable story that i wanna share here! stay tuned... lol

It had been a harsh time for me during this exam period as im doing last minutes revision due to my sickness, laziness, emotional broke down. STill, i went through all the papers with all my best! Hope luck will fall on me as well ~

Yeah ~ i been enjoying all the time since i done my third paper ~ and yeah yeah.. the enjoying & wonderful time continue after i finish my last paper :)
It been a great time...

Somehow I feel a little bit of 'bu she de' to end my degree life so soon! I still can't see my future, what i want and what kind of life, career that i will fall into. Everything seems so complicated.

Forgive me for talking so much of crap here.

dumb dumb ever

Finally, the final exam is started. COunt down 3 left ~
Yesterday, I had my first paper - IBPF and i screwed up on it
At first, i thought im doing well for the paper
aiks.. Later on, I realize that i had did a very stupid mistake
How can i copy answer blindly without reading the question carefully
wtf im doing now.. haiz... Thats the first stupid mistake that i did
I feel so dumb & stupid :(



Im feeling exhausted after this paper yet i couldn't rest or sleep when i reach home
Maybe im too tired plus the stupid mistake affected my mind
sighs...

Bad Luck

I don't know why recently all bad things happen on me. At first i got sick and all those painful, then my phone spoil and... I wish to have more luck for my final exam. I just hope all the bad things happen now and won't happen for my final ~ It will be enough for me.

Kinda heartache after listen all those words. It hits my heart badly :( I wonder what is true... *emo*

Yesterday (17 June 2010), I feel really tired after went out for whole day. Finally, i able to sleep well after so long. Its been more than 2 weeks that i didn't manage to have a good sleep. Maybe this is because of my mood turn to be good. Im happy that he accompany me study for whole afternoon.

It's time to start NOW ~ yet i dont hv motivation..

he is the only one who can motivate me

yet he did nothing...

sighs!

BabY GURL ♥

How much i wish i can be his only baby girl

cherish me like he did always

I knew that he don't like me to rely on him so much

I had been pestering him since i fell sick

I had no idea...

perhaps i need a way to keep myself

from stick with him &

stay away from him

Im always trying my best on it ~

I wish im the one bb ♥

New Puppy in the house

wow...

This is my first time i meet him

~ little cuties ~

My cousin just bought it

It is a Schnauzer

but the colour of fur doesn't look like the usual one

not 100% pure

white colour really so nice

as white as the snow

I like it so much...

he is just 3 months baby only

still small size as compare to kino

New puppy

This is kino

He is very cute & smart oh :)

温馨的小事

昨天，我去了Old Town， 在那里消耗了差不多有六个小时。原以为出来外面，空气比较流通，也比较能专心的读书，可是我还是心不在焉。很多时候，我都是在发呆，望着店门口人来人往的走廊或是在店里的客人。

其中，有一桌人吸引了我的目光，我的视线一直都无法从他们身上离开。在我眼里，他们是一个非常温馨的家庭，由爸爸妈妈带着一对子女，还有爷爷和奶奶。另外还有一个老婆婆却不知道他们是什么关系。我猜想是奶奶的姐妹吧！她的声音最引起我的注意。我可以很清楚的听到她亲切的与孙子的对话。一家人一起在外面喝下午茶，是多么的温馨，是多么幸福的事呀！我真的非常羡慕，一直默默地渴望拥有这样的机会，却是从未实现的期待。如今，这份期待也只能保存在我心里成为永远的期待！曾几何时，我也有阿公阿麽疼，当时还小的我，却不懂得去珍惜，现在的我，是多么渴望与羡慕那些仍有着公公婆婆疼的小孩。希望他们会好好珍惜这一段美好的亲情！

在那一家人走的时候，我看见老婆婆和老奶奶手牵着手地一起走。那一幕，真令人心动！

当我想念我的公公婆婆时，

我只能在回忆里，

或是梦中，

与他们想见了！

S!CK

I fell sick since last week and this push me even more pressure on my studies.

At first it is just a small matter of flu + sore throat. Doctor gave me the flu medicine and will be recover after few days of rest. One week later, my flu almost heal and here the sore throat came again. sighs.. As recently i always burn midnight oil, lack of sleeping hours and also water, sore throat getting serious. Due to too stressful, i got headache on wednesday night and i forced to swallow 2 panadol to relief my pain. Next day, the pain seems never reduced and i got so suffered and he sent me to clinic to seek for consultation from doctor again. Doctor asked me to get enough sleep and drink more water. She said if continue like this, i might get fever.

After taken lunch with him, he forced me to eat the medicine. After that, I didn't feel headache and blur blur already. I felt better. Once i reach home, i took a short nap.

Argh... The worst really happen to me. i woke up at 8pm and didn't have my dinner. That time, i feel so cold & i was suspected got fever already. I called him and wanna tell him that im really suffered but he seems no reaction and busy with his works. So, after few hours my fever goes until very high and i really don't know what to do. My dad went out and bought me dinner. AFter i taken my dinner then only take the medicine again. That night is real suffer, pain and cold + hot for me. Some more, i wait for him whole night to online and at the end, i was so disappointed that he didn't.

That night i really can't sleep well as i got cold & hot again and again. Also, my back was so painful until i can't sleep. On friday, he came meet me. We have breakfast together and he feed me with porridge. *teehee* Sick people should have such a privilege.

I thought im getting better and i study @ old town for the whole afternoon. I spent 5 hours there & i actually can't focus on it and didn't study much due to the painful of my back & my condition doesn't seems to be good. argh... im damn stress and worried ~ :(

Then, i got high fever again. AFter he done his work, he accompany me. I feel so comfortable to lay on him and warm that he hug me. Although im really very suffered at the moment, Im happy to have him beside me and take care of me. After that, i went to clinic again. this is the third time already. I straight away asked doctor to gave me injection as i got no time to wait my sickness heal slowly. I got to study and study.. really the worst case now.

That night, he spare many hours to accompany me because of my sick. He worried about me! :) We had dinner together. It's great even though i have to eat porridge again. After that, he sent me home.

These few days, I really ate alot of painkiller. I wonder will it affect my brain cell. I hope it wont and i wont get stupid after i got high fever for 2 days. lolz...

here is my medicine which make me crazy :(

i hate those medicine.. hate it :'(

Randomness

Im wasting my time blogging here instead of doing my revision. Im sure many of them gonna say me no guai again. haha ~ Due to the killing subject - PFM, im here to release my stress! lol ~ this is just a nonsense excuse.

I still feel lazy to do my revision. Also, i suffered stomach pain this early morning at 5am. Argh.. what's a bad condition to start my day! I slept very late last night and yet awake so much earlier even though i do not have to go college. wth man, im real tired and exhausted. Even my aunt also asked me why i look so dumb and blur with my small eyes last night.



After few days of waiting, finally i get the email. It's a long email that written by him. I can't get into my mind what he wrote even though i read it repeatedly for several times. Anyways, i feel touched when i read the last part even though it is part of the lyric that he copied out from somewhere.

♥ Had a small surprise today! Erm.. maybe I should consider it as my wish come true. haha ~ I been wondering since few days ago that when he will come to find me like previous time. I still remember there is a day that he came all the way to my house and bought something for me as I angry him and 'fa pi qi' towards him. Recently, there are alot of argument & unhappyness happen. And im wonder why he won't bother again which care of me like last time. *disappointed*

Just now he came find me really surprised me. It's like what i think in my mind does come true. :) *Thanks for the lunch & bubble tea* happy with it ~

No matter what gonna happen in coming days, im still believe in our promise.

No matter what troubles you had, be tough and everything gonna be ok ~ support you!

No matter how busy we are, don't forget to slow down, have a rest, thinking of the moment we went through and take care!

No matter how long we didn't meet, im still believe nothing gonna change as long as there is a determination.

Last Last round

It's 9am ~ @ computer lab
I really very tired & so sick now. Flu haven't fully recover here sore throat come again. Today gonna be a tiring day as i got 8 hours continuous classes to attend and all are so important for my final exam. No choice, i force to attend all tutorials. The worst thing is i didn't bring my girl girl along with me. Miss her so much. If i had brought it, I can take a nap in computer lab.

This period is really very tough for me and i just wish i can fully recover soon and gains more spirit to fight for the last one.

IBPF = stress
PFM = What the hell = nightmare
GI = Hopeless
BIS = dying

When i looked at my calendar, I feel panic, worried and scary. Left 2 more weeks to go. Im running out of time. How can i finish up everything in 2 weeks time. sighs.. hopeless :(
Stress level increases... 10% -- 20% -- 40% -- 50% -- 75%

yosh ~ go go go

- moodless to get myself to study -
I can feel that my brain cell die due to revising this subject - IBPF. Finance subjects isn't my line that I familiar with. I can conclude that Finance and ME are two different world. Seriously, i hate finance and i never had score for those subjects. There are the one that i never know and understand since beginning. aiks.. im wondering why im here to study finance. I feel dumb and stupid for all these. x_x

I need more spirit to backup myself for this final round. I always pray hard that im able to get through it but seems like i never put effort to help myself. HOw? Recently I always got distracted by something else. I can't throw those matter aside, and it keep pester me.

I feel very tired after few days of revision. Its really consumed lots of my energy and i feel exhausted. At the end, there is nothing goes into my mind. what i get = 0! now i really look like this 0.0"

But still there is something that cheer me ~ i got my new small pillow lately, i called it girl girl. Coz it look so girl. haha... pinkish & cute with soft fur! oh no.. i just like it so much till i can't leave it away from my hand. :)

Yosh ~ got to back to my IBPF there ~ go go go.. i must do it!

yeah yeah ~ i like to hug it ♥

♥ muahz..

~ abit worried about you as i heard you fall sick ~

~ remember to get well soon oh ~

~ will care of you as how you care of me ~

♥ Ȃ Ŝw3ĕt sŵėęŧ daʏ of 06 - 06

It's exact 4 months ~ time flies till we'll never realize about it. I never think of going out or plan anything in today as final are real coming soon, i got to speed up my revision. Yet, im being procrastinate all the time. sighs.. useless ~

I had a great afternoon :) cherish the moment that i spend with him! I went to Midvalley just now and its so crowded with people. DOn't like it ~ head to sg wang later on. I get the stuff that i want. argh ~ I just keep spend spend spend till im broke. SO much to buy yet so little to spend.

Thought to have some sweet desserts @ My honeymoon Desserts House. But in the end, no time to go already. Nvm, keep it for next time would be great too! I went back home for my dinner. I will feel great and happy if i can have my dinner with him tonight.

~ have little fun too ~ *whee whee* but, each time something unpredictable and unexpectable happened right after happiness. It proved what i said earlier are all correct. I just don't like it.

your ♥ are always the one i want :)

4 months - how much it means?

the day of 4 months ago - 4 February 2010

This is the day that we officially know each other. Im actually afraid of talking to him and i just can peep at him all the time. I got distracted as his serious look when he work really caught my eyes. I was trying to get a chance to talk to him but all of us were so busy at that time.

After few days of working together, I actually have more chance to chat with him. Finally, we are able to joke around when there are no customers in shop. Also, as usual, i will still staring at him whenever im free. I observed the way he work and doing his things and im trying to be like him.

After one week, seems like we had alot of fun together. It's really a great moment even though we were so tired after all. The day without him in shop, i got the feeling of lack of something. I miss having him here! His sms cheer me alot on that time, im glad that he actually understand and considerate of my tiredness and feeling. Also, he appreciate what i did in shop! Im really very happy.

My last day of working - 13 February 2010
This is our first time having meal together. Yeah ~ we had our breakfast at MCD before start working! This meal is the incentive for me to work for the last day on 13 Feb. wow, we were wearing the same monkey shirt on that day. Both shirts also new one.

After resign, at first i worried that we'll never contact again. So I don't have chance to chat or hang out with him again. I never expect that we actually can contact through sms. and Yeah ~ we did! During the whole cny period, we chat through sms and went out together.

15 February 2010
First time that i went out with him. I feel strange and no idea how it goes ~ at the end, everything turn out great. We watched movie together which had lots of laughter, it is great that we had endless conversation. The time that we spent was just too short on that day.

17 February 2010
First time i went shopping with him. He accompany me shop for the stuff that i look for. He brought me to several shopping centre in one day. Also, all the apparel that i bought are chosen by him. *yeah - he is my image consultant who helped me alots with my attire* Thanks to him!

And yes ~ we still keep in touch with each other and going out whenever we're free. Being with him gave me the feeling of secure, going out with him gave me lots of fun, its just feel nice to be with him without any worries or sadness ~

It is no doubt that he is a good listener and companion. Since the day we are friends, he is trying to listen what is actually right inside my heart. He dig out all the painful and hurtful problems which i hide it deep inside my heart. I have no idea that how much effort that he gave in order to make me shout out everything. He is the one who never feel trouble that spend such a long time to listen to my complaints, nagging and all dissatisfaction. When i burst into tears, he stay by my sides, listen to me and helped me wipe all the tears.

His shoulder is always the warmest and most comfortable one that i miss all the time.
His hug is always the best comfort for me.
His care is always the great support to me.

Day after day, we're actually understand each other better. Both of us are used to have each other in our life. It's been lots that we went through together in these 4 months, we built our history, we coloured our memories, we filled our life with sweet, bitter, sour ~

Time is still moving, and everything around us is also keep changing, we can't deny that we're changing also. We'll never realize until we slow down and start to think of & feel it. Everything started with sweet and cheerful scenes. Problems arise due to our ignorance and careless.

I knew that he wish to go back to the starting point which we had the most cheerful and sweet moments. But, everything that we went through already carved and cannot be erase. Im grateful that we went through so much and I really like it so much ~ I like your existence during the moments that i fell to the bottom and hurt badly, i been so down without moving on ~

Yeah ~ EVerything doesn't matter as long as we're happy with our life now ~ We wouldn't know what will happen in the next second, and what we need to do is appreciate what we have for this second! let's play it to the fullest :) ♥

I actually have so much after all
thanks!
I'll never regret on it ~
bbj ♥

Back to camwhore ♥

Yeah ~ im back to camwhore again ♥

i been busy with my assignments, working and alots troubles for the past few weeks. So, my mood was getting so down and everything doesn't look great enough. Now, im free from all troublesome assignments. No more assignments in my life, does it sound great? perhaps its not.. lolz..

There are alot of things happen for the past few weeks. lots... it's been so much that we been through.. I had alot of quality time spent with my beloved.

Loong & cathe came all the way to klang to find me for dinner. omg, im touched! love being with them :) i brought them to eat bak kut teh as dinner, and i had two dinner for that night. *fat fat* This is how i gain weight during these days. haha *_*

Once again, five of us "qian, rain, xuan, fish & aaron" having our great dinner with the hei kor at klang ~ Im still remember that the first time that aaron drove all the way to klang and send me home, that time also 5 of us together :) After dinner, I brought them to the shop i work @ hang ten to promote my polo shirt. lolz.. They bought alot monkey polo shirt ~ YEAH, we can wear the same shirt during roadtrip. *great idea* haha...


18 - 05 - 2010



19 - 05 - 2010



25 - 05 - 2010



02 - 06 - 2010

The girl who addicted to lollipops

告诉我为什么好吗？

为什么打从一开始我受的苦要是比别人多？
直到现在，我承受的还是比别人多
而某些人却一直以来都是那么轻轻松松的

为什么我需要付出比别人更多
而有些人却可以捡便宜，
轻而易举的得到方便和利益！

为什么每次受气的是我
为什么一直都是我

为什么那么的不公平
为什么每次都是这样
为什么一次又一次的一样？

为什么我要那么努力
而到头来我得到的是什么？

我不奢望会有人看见我的付出
也不需要别人的认同
但我只求相等的待遇！

一分耕耘，一分收获，
到底有多真？我很怀疑！

你不珍惜我的付出
没关系
你不认同我做的事
没关系
你不把我放在眼里
没关系
什么都要听你的
没关系
可是
我却无法忍受
你的大小声
我不是你的狗
你也不是我的主人
我不是什么事都要向你报告的

emo

I just realize this is actually not what i want...
I have no idea.
Im tired and sick of feeling down

argh... im feeling lost!

借來的男人

女孩子問我怎樣看婚外情。我認為是：

借來的時間，
借來的男人，
借來的女人，
借來的歡娛。

他已經結婚了，再怎麼好，都是屬於別人的。你只是把他借來用，而且還沒有徵求物主的同意。
她已經是人家的太太了，再怎麼可愛，都是屬於別人的。你只是把她借回來。

借來的東西，始終不是你的。
借來的東西，終究要還給別人。
借來的人，時候到了，就要回家。

借來的男人和女人，都是有期限的。無論那段日子多麼快樂，多麼難捨難離，時鐘敲響了，就要把他還給他的家庭。你可以遲一點還，卻不可以不還。借來的歡娛，總有痛苦的代價。

你唯一能夠永遠霸佔著的，只有回憶。

【本文摘錄自 張小嫻《女人的愛情行李》】

如果借来的东西有个期限，

这个期限会是多久呢？

Words from HIM

I'd go anywhere for you
Anywhere that you ask me to go
I'd do anything for you
Anything that you want me to do
as long as your smile & love with me.

I'd go anywhere for you
when you need me with you
I'd do anything for u
without any returns
as long as you have me in your mind

words that hit my heart

never felt that i can be

so loved by someone else

原来它会疼痛

去年的今天，我崩溃了。
我陷入了水深火热之中，
就好比一场噩梦。
但当我惊醒时，
才发现那股真实感，
原来那不是梦。
直到如今，
我的胸口仍然是隐隐作痛。
那看不见的伤口，流不出血的伤
还是深深地烙印在心中。

原来这不是梦，
但我却无法清醒地面对一切。

The girl who addicted to lollipops

09 May 2009

I'll never forget what had happened to me for the rest of my life

The day which i was suffer like hell

I feel the sense of betrayal by anyone else who i trusted all the time

my heart was like tearing apart

I wonder why... I wonder what i had been wrong?

is that my fault? my stupidity? my naive?

I don't know who else can i trust anymore in my life

I can't see any hope & light right in front of me

The hope, the trust i been given all the time, collapsed on that moment

I feel helpless...

I burst into tears...

I can't speak out...

I feel i been fool all the time

Everything flash across my mind,

which cause me the real taste of bitter

I can hardly stand to it

& I was in fear since the time...

Time flies & it's already one year

yet all the scenes that i been suffering never gone missing in my mind

Im still in fear

the only thing that withstand the bitter is the sweetness of lollipops

the scar which never heal itself

always remind me everything everything everything...

my heart is always crying

don't you hear it?

Sick zzz :'(

The Night which i feel the pain
i been vomitting like hell for the whole night
& dizzy all the way....
I cough & vomitted till my lungs wanna drop out
kinda suffer...
I hate this feeling :'(

JJ Lim - 我还想她

请告诉他 我不爱他
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉他 我还想他
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

Missing ♥

define opportunity cost

all the needs & wants will never get fulfill
& there is no satisfaction ~
I wonder what is my opportunity cost here
really very confused & no idea
which one is my priority

- manicure course
- professional accounting course
- working environment
- my future career
- travel
- getting a new car
- alots more ~

yeah, once i choose one of it and i got to forgo the rest of it ~

*she had been wondering all the while that when only she able to accomplish all her wish*

惊醒

你的一句话，
唤醒了我，
也许，
是时候该清醒了！
原来我不可以
自欺欺人
原来我不能
若无其事
原来我无法接受
那我只好选择割舍.

♥ 一句简单的话 ♥

LOST

DAY & TIME in Η Ά и Ģ Ť ξ Π

11 - 04 - 2010 (SAT)

Having fun with them make me forget all the tiredness & sadness
coz they make me laugh ~
coz they make me forget what is sad ~
coz they make me forget the moment of being lonely ~
It's only more FUN and more LAUGH when they're with me



There are ONLY 5 of us in the shop


~ ♥ ---- qian ---- moon ---- wei ---- yee ---- tat ----♥ ~



*kissing*

THIS is what we did after we closed the shop ~*

*heart ♥ ~ lovely babes*

- colour of the day = PINK @ from light to sharp -


- MY new look - new fringe - New polo tee - new pants -

*~ Vitagen ~*

* Powerful & refreshing vitagen *

It's a sudden i think of vitagen & i miss it
It's been a long time that i didnt drink it
OMG ~ i miss the taste badly... i really want it for now...
especially when i got really stress and tired of doing assignmnet
Yeah ~ i bought my favourite vitagen...
hehe... I'm happy & satisfied after i drink it :)
- vitagen as my reward of hard work and motivation to go on -
as i know its gonna be a busy weekend & following busy week
Hope its end faster and soon...
I wanna watch movie ~

yeah :)

i like vitagen

and it gives me power

addicted to it

its taste as sweet as my lovely lollipop ~

muahz.. love it

♥

♥ Yeah ~ I miss the moment ~
♥ It's really fun...

Dilemma

Things are getting more complicated
argh ~ i don't know what to do...
i can't leave everything unsolve and ignore it
but how?

6 - 4 - 2010

tiring day ~
attended classes & having discussion for assignments..
IM STRESS!!
Gonna complete 3 assignments in one week...
what the hell man...
i feel my laziness and its due to i didn't go to work these days
troubling for alots of matter
quite emotional recently & bad tempered
i hope that i won't get to hurt anyone
perhaps i already did it unintentionally...

Its been sometimes i do not hang out with my babes ♥ aka bef ~
I miss them so much & miss the moments having fun with them
we guys are really damn busy for now...
look forward to the days we will hang out together *muahz*
Not forget and also ♥ babe Gen & loong :)

hey hey ~ yeah ~ yeah ~
having a little fun & talk today
what i wanna tell i already told you
*thats for what was in my mind on the spot*
maybe there are more to say and
my mind was really empty and blank

Once AGain ~ i back to the look like 3.5 years ago when i started my uni life ~